(Oreimo Fanfict) My friend can't be this much into BDSM

[risingstar3110]

Tittle is actually was chosen just to make it easier to recognise. But Kirino will only occasionally appear in this. As I plan to write this from Kuroneko and mostly Ayase narration. Thought of Kuroneko as main narrator at first, but her chunii language is too difficult to mimic.

Of course it's fanfic, so it's self-pleasured really. But i always want to fantasize about Ayase story and her sudden (canon) BDSM relationship with Kuroneko. And how she comes to term with them and so on. Like Kirino and otaku fandom in the original novel really. I also want mentioning the Kousaka siblings as side character, just to fantasize about how their life will work out from the semi-open LN/anime ending. Two birds one stone really

Few key points:

• not a literature guy. Always want to write a story but my writing is not up to par. Since my mind often run wild with fantasy so think a light novel format probably will help me going. Have to start from somewhere right?
• interest in, but know little knowledge about real BDSM in general, once again hopefully writing this will give me an incentive to start looking into it
• the focus will be on Ayase and Kuroneko relationship, with a bit of subtext~ish depending how it goes. But that would means neither of them will be in any other romantic relationship with anyone else
• I am generally very open-minded. So if you have any feedback/ suggests on anything: plot devices, grammar, uses of words, please be frank but kind on me. I am rereading and fixings it as it goes as well. Also as nature of the fanfict, i think charterer will tends to be OOC. But i still want to keep them relatively as similar to the novel as they could, personality wise and the way they talk. The writing format as well. Those familiar with the novel maybe could point me out a better use of words/ lines. Especially Kuroneko Chunii talk

Let's just start:

Originally Posted by Volume 1 Prologue

"You guys did WHAT yesterday?"
Kirino stood up, slamming both her hands on the coffee table.
But as she started to notice the bystander crowd gathering eyes on her. She made a small cough to hide her embarrassment while slowly sat back into her seat.

"It's.... it's not like that, Kirino" I muttered

Still had eyes with burning flame on me, and without diverting them away , Kirino pointed her finger toward Kuroneko. Who was still slowly slipping on her tea next to me, pretending as if it was not even her concern.

"But... she told me that you called that cat 'Mistress', while she did THAT to you..."

I instinctively moved my hand to cover the mark on my collarbone . And while kept my head down, glanced to Kuroneko seeking for help. She saw my pleading but pretends not to notice.

Of course, it's me being scolded by Kirino right now.

Damn that girl. I should have killed her when I got the chance.


Sigh. Where should I begin this story with...

........................................

Spoiler for Chapter 1:

It's a warm day in April. I was sitting next to Kuroneko in one of those Akihabara maid cafe booths. And sitting opposite to us was our dearest friend Kirino. It was only the three of us today

This was my first opportunity to catch up with Kirino since I started entering college. She was busy with settling into new life after moving out of her family home.... To chase after onii-san.... Who is currently in his final year at her enrolled college.

And while they all acted casual about the fact that she gonna move in with him, and how the two constantly denied it. I think everyone includes the father and mother already had a vague idea on the nature of their relationship….

But disregarding all that, we all were happy for Kirino. She put on a tough front, but I know she was totally devastated in the first several months after seeing him going to college in another city. And despite how strong my Kirino was, it would have taken a full year before everything could get back on track for her.

Even then, the only time I saw her truly smiling is whenever she showed me an onii-san message or whenever we could all find a time to catch up, which is rare by itself. Especially during our final year.

And while the sorrowed Kirino has her own adult charm, I'm just glad that my Kirino has shined like a sun again.

I really do

About me, well......

"I already knew that something was fishy when you allowed that cat to move in with you, Ayase. Why do you guys have to keep hiding your forbidden relationship from me..."

"You...". That ticked Kuroneko off. "Don't lump Ayase's pure intention to your pervert brocon tendency. Not everyone is shameless enough pretending to share an apartment, while actually just turning it into their own love nest."

"Wha.... What are you.... talking about.....".

That was effective, as Kirino started leaning back, with a stunned look on her face, blushed red and only could mutter back few broken sentences. She was still pretending to us that she and oniisan had already turned back to normal siblings. How adorable, Kirino ♪.

"She was only moving in with me to save on rent, that's all. You have to believe us, Kirino."

That's the truth through. We don't talk about it. But Kuroneko family doesn't do as well as ours. And unlike Kirino I went to the same university with that girl. So when I realised how she could only afford a shabby place at most, and how far she has to travel every day for university and for her part-time job. I had suggested her to move into my apartment since I would need a roommate anyway...

Not to mention it would save me the time travelling whenever it's my turn to come to her place. And there's hardly any privacy over there. And the bedroom and bathroom were tiny....

Kirino suddenly glance at Kuroneko like she figured out something.

“Hmm. Hmm. I see…”

"… even so, Ayase, would a normal roommate TIE YOU UP with rope, and asked you to call her "mistress"? "

And that I have no defense of.

This whole conversation all started with Kirino accidentally seeing the rope mark on my neck , and Kuroneko stupidly blurted out the detail. That girl couldn't keep her mouth shut.

"We were only exploring the suitability of our sacred ceremony toward the denizens of the Dark Realm. Ayase attribute is holy by the way..."

She was making it sounds even worse.

"Ku....Kuroneko. Stop confusing her.... Wait, Kirino. Let's me explain"

Kirino turned to me and gave a 'go-ahead' sign. Then she sit back, patiently folded her arms but still with a clear distrust expression. As I was taking time to pick out correct words

"You know I and Kuroneko has a special way to 'communicate', yes?

"Yeah, and...?"

"During our last Comiket. Because we could not go due to the exam. So Saori brought me some books."

"It...it was... some... BDSM doujins. And she was teasing us about how it will be a good reference for what we were doing."

"So we were just exploring it out to prove that our ceremony was not as vulgar as those in that book." Added Kuroneko

Kirino close her eyes, has her finger on her forehead like she was struggling to compute all that. Before pointed it to Kuroneko.

"Then how did you go from allowing Ayase to step on your stomach to agreeing on tying her up?"

"......."

Right….
Since last time being caught by her a few years back. We had been much more careful whenever we 'communicate' with each other. So Kirino had always been assuming that that's all we did. And while it's true that I am responsible for about 40% of all those recent new acts, it's that M slave's fault for gladly accepting whatever I proposed.

Kuroneko's silence and inability to response worked like a testimony for all of suspicion in Kirino's head. That damn useless girl. Oh I so wished that it would be my turn tonight. So I can direct all of these frustrations toward her.

"Oh well, whatever. Just tell me whenever you guys are ready to come out" she stood up, left money for her bill and prepared to leave

"Kirino...."

I planned to further protest. But as we were just digging up a deeper hole at every turn. It's probably better just to change the topic.

"....when are you going to meet onii-san?"

"In 15 minutes, at 4:00. I have bought too many of Meruru goods... "

She showed us like two huge bags of doujins and eroges that she just bought

".... And that guy just bought a car, so he can help to carry them home"

"So you often drive with him, eh?" Asked Kuroneko.

"Only sometime, that useless guy's too busy right now applying for a job. So we couldn't plan for any long trip."

Kirino…. you just blurted out something dangerous right there.

"Let's go too Ayase. We still need to buy some groceries before the shop closes"

"Yes, mistre...." (Kuroneko-sama...)

In that instance, I wanted to kill myself.

As I slowly turned toward Kirino. What faced me is her business fake smile that I was so familiar with during our model work. The room temperature was dropping down to sub-degree. As my body started to uncontrollably shiver

"I...I... Really have to go"

She turned her back on us and muttered those few words as she walked away.

But after made a few steps toward the door. She suddenly stopped, turned her head toward my direction, showing a great sympathy in her eyes, and said with a bittersweet smile.

"Don't do it too hard, ok? Ayase? No matter what happened, you will always be my dearest friend"

…and walked straight out of the maid cafe.

I instinctively reached my arm toward her, but no words could come out.

Next to me Kuroneko was also speechless, but with an embarrassed blush on her cheeks

If I kill Kuroneko right now. Would this misunderstanding be resolved...?


...Ended of chapter 1...

Spoiler for Chapter 2 :

I am known as Kuroneko, Queen of Nightmare, and a faithful servant of Dark Lord Asthely .

Wielding extraordinary power even amongst Diablo users, and command thousands of demons over both realms.

But right now my soul is in peril of being devoured by even a darker and more sinister adversary

Or let me put it so even you mortals could understand.

Like me, my friend and roommate isn't a normal person by all account. But she had been showing an even stranger side since leaving Akihabara.

From the time we arrived home until this instance, with both eyes void of soul, she had been standing in the kitchen next to the chopping board. And chopped down pretty much any vegetables she could grab from our grocery bag.

As I was sitting in the couch pretending to read one of her magazine while observe the situation. Occasionally i could catch a glimpse of her starring directly toward me, with her cold dead eyes, while slowly hold the kitchen knife even higher above her head. Then chop down with all the forces in the universe.

We took turns for cooking, and it's her day today. Normally I would have helped out whenever I am home early from my part time job. But the sixth sense inherited from my familiar, the once faithful and loyal Fallen Beast, telling me not to stand around her right now.

Frankly I am truly terrified to be even this close.

But I could not leave my friend, and also a comrade, 's life force to be depleted away and corrupted by her own inner dark force.

Since our first meeting, I have realised that this girl is different with all other mortals…

Because under her pretence as a servant of justice, she was hiding a dark and powerful layer of miasma, that even Diablo Ability Users like me would have been overwhelmed by.

And while it was sealed and suppressed by her bloodline guardians, it did not take me long to tap in that power and returned her to her true nature

Yes she is Dark Angel Ayase. A great partner and a trusted comrade of mine, in our quest to rebel against God

But right now her massified miasmas will kill us both, if I can't defuse or suppress it.

Should I call Kirino asking for help? Kirino normally could put a temporary suppression onto this child

No, the current situation was too volatile. And that airhead tended to blurt out things from eroge which could accidentally worsen the situation. Like what happened this afternoon

I have to take matter into my own hand. Only I can diffuse this matter.

Firstly the process to release and neutralise some of those dark miasma.....

"Hey, Ayase.... do you want to continue the yesterday ritual after dinner?"

The chopping sounds got louder and sharper.

A sweat slowly rolling down my cheek. Strange, it's freezing in here.

"How's about we skip my turn and start with yours today?”

"......"

I take that as a yes


..........................................


So after dinner, while Ayase washed the dishes, I came back to my room, got change and patiently wait for her to finish.

According to what Ayase read, it's better to wear light clothing so the garments won't press too much onto our skin. And since we only started with basic pattern: using ropes to tie a demonic pentagon shape on our chest, wearing a normal one-piece swimsuit will do.

I didn't want to make the same mistake with Ayase yesterday when the collar of her loose T-shirt slipped off and the tighten rope ended up making a mark on her neck.

Saying that though, it feels embarrassing to kneel on top of my futon, in the middle of my room, wearing only a swimsuit.

Even when the blinds were closed and no one could see me from outside, still it feels fairly uncomfortable wearing only this little, especially compare to how I normally dress

The sound of running tap water has stopped for a while so Ayase should have done with the dishes. What was taking that girl so long?

Maybe she started to work on the preparation for this ritual?

She is a diligent girl though. Naive but has always been trying her hardest on everything.

Since the day she forced herself to accept her dear friend, Kirino's hobby. And later, mine (and eventually our ritual). She had been a lot more open-minded on trying out new things.

In fact, it felt like she had been on a crusade to educate herself about every other strange hobby in the world. Just so she won't ever again prejudge another person based on their preference.

Which led to the reason why I am sitting half-naked here in the first place.

Next to me is the very expensive silk rope that she determined to buy despite I insisted any tighten rope will do.

She was very serious through, spending all her recent spare time reading these articles on internet, and even looking for related books in library. She was also the one who suggested me to try it on her first so she can be the recipient of any newbie mistakes

Sigh. Why did I always surround myself by these over-enthusiastic idiots....?

A knock on the door cut my thought half way.

After heard my reply, Ayase walked into the room with a book on one hand, and another huge scissor on the other. The same one which I normally used, to make my and Ayase's cosplay costumes.

Normally seeing Ayase holding any sharp objects would have terrified the soul out of the people in our circle, Kyousuke in particular. But this time she had a huge blush on her cheek and was diverting her eyes away from my swimsuit.

Kukuku, I guessed even this bold girl is still an innocent child at heart.

It gave me my self-assurances back.

"Let's start, Ayase. I can't keep sitting here all day"

"Hey Kuroneko...."

Ayase did try to call me 'senpai' during our highschool day. But after a few times, it just made both of us feel extremely awkward when we address each other outside. So now she just calls me using my alias when there's no bystander around.

"...if i tighten it too hard, tell me right away, ok?"

So that's what the scissors for.

"Kukuku. My defense power is much higher than yours. I won't show such a pathetic side like you did yesterday...."

Whenever we carry out our ritual, especially when it comes to her turn to submit her soul to me, I would insist her calling me with my proper title: Queen of Darkness Kuroneko-sama. But because Ayase found it too embarrassing, the most she would agree to, was just "Kuroneko-sama".

So yesterday, when I realised that the rope had made a mark on her collarbone, we both were seriously freaked out (she's a teenager model after all). And as I was frantically untying the rope, since Ayase couldn't see what was going on on her neck, she was half in tear while repeatedly called me 'Kuroneko-sama' the whole time

I have to admit, that was moe by every definition of that word

Made me realised the reason why guys were all over her during high school.

Strangely Ayase had been really quiet.

Eh? Ayase?

"......."

"......."

Ayase's reaction to my boasting was a long silence.

Stole a glance at her, I realised that her face was slowly stiffen and her eyes started to lose sight of any humanity in it.

Ah. I messed up

What i just said, reminded her of what happened this afternoon.

"Kuroneko-san, could you raise both of your arms?"

Her request was more like a direct command

As I reluctantly followed her words, she started to wrap the rope around my lower chest and tighten.

Ouch! Ouch! It hurt!! Her real nature resurfaced . And I just turned myself into the received end for all those rage.

I take it back; this girl is the true Demon Queen of the Dark Realm.

…End of Chapter 2…

Spoiler for Chapter 3:

Now let's see. Have the rope end going under the left arm, then to her back. Then tighten it into the knot that was made earlier in the back. Got it.

"Ah...!!" Kuroneko groaned softly.

Ok, that's definitely too tight. The book said leaving a finger width from the rope to her back. But let's just make it two.

"....."

Must be better. As Kuroneko was slowly breathing out, almost like a sigh of relief.

(Ha...ha...). I also breathed pretty heavily and had to wipe a sweat rolling down my face. This tired me more than I thought....

Now let's see.

I didn't do that bad of an effort, did I? ♪

The rope pattern from Kuroneko's back looked just like in the picture.

But before moving to check from the front....

"Eh... Ayase...?"

I slowly grabbed Kuroneko left wrist from behind, then slowly turned it around, guided it to her back. Where I handcuffed it with the handcuff I hid in my pocket....

Kuroneko apparently understood what I was trying to do, so she stopped her resistance as I processed to do the same to her right arm.

It's not like this's the first time that I cuffed her like this anyway.

Now, let's check the front.... The rope made a nice pentagon shape on her upper chest. I did well, didn't I? ♪

The ropes tightened over and below where her breasts are made it looked so indecent through. I had to divert my eyes away from not to staring on them too much.

(Ah...ha....ha...) "Can't believe i fell to such a simple trap, Dark Angel Ayase." (Ah...ha....ha...)

Kuroneko's breath showed a slight of discomfort mixed in with some excitement. But she still managed to crack a smile while spout out her usual chuuni talk. So she should be OK.

So here kneeling in front of me was a girl who's one year my senior. Also a friend and a roommate. With arms being handcuffed behind her back. Aand chest being tighten with a rope in pentagon pattern. While looking up at me and pretending that I was her captor. There were so many things wrong with this situation. But the only thought I could think of is how well I have done to get into it.

"So.... how does it feel.... Kuroneko?"

(Ah...ha....ha...) "Not much different to your usual ritual... Hey. Don't look so excited. You will need to try harder… if you want to take my soull...cough...cough...."

Kuroneko suddenly cough uncontrollably

"Wait, let me get you some water"

"Thank, Ayase"

I grabbed the half-full water bottle from the top of her desk. We both were sweating a bunch so it seemed like her throat was just a bit dehydrated.

And as I moved toward her, uncapped the bottle and trying to place it on her mouth (both her arms were still handcuffed). THAT happened...

Until this day, I still don't know what was going through my mind at that moment.

Felt like something that took over my body, I walked toward right in front of her and stood tall. With her still kneeling under my feet.

I opened the palm of my left hand, face it up, while slightly bend and tighten my fingers into a small basin shape. Then just like that I moved my fingertips toward between her lips.

Kuroneko probably was puzzled with my action so she started to tilt her head straight up and glanced at me. And as she did that, I moved the bottle in my other hand up front, and tilted its neck toward my left wrist.

We didn't exchange a single word, but amazingly Kuroneko could read my intention. And even more amazingly, she just started to reluctantly further lift her head up, close her eyes and open her soft lips without a single protest.

That's all the permission i need, as I started to slowly and steadily pour the water down where my wrist is, let it run along my palm, guided by my fingers and trickled into between those lips

“Gulp….gulp….”

It probably was no more than 2-3 minutes, but time seemed to slow down to eternity.

My body was filled with excitement. Like i have just won over something

Ah.... where did your arrogance go, Kuroneko? Now you know that I am better than you!!

What was I going to win again?

Anyway, it's not important. I was so busy focusing on this being, who was still kneeling in front of me as she gulped down the water spilling off my hand, that I could not care less about anything else.

I didn't even mind if I am stuck in this moment for eternity.

In fact I hope I would

Kuroneko soon got her fill, so she slightly closed down her lips indicating me to stop. But i didn't want to let my hand go. As she slowly tried to move her head back down, the water from my fingertips kept dripping down to her nose, then onto her forehead

"Stop, Ayase..."

Just a bit more, Kuroneko. There's just a bit more of water left in the bottle. You can endure that much for me, can’t you, Kuroneko?

The water started running down from her forehead, rolling down off her cheeks, noses and drippings toward her swimsuits and futon. But I was so into the act that I couldn't pay any minds about that.

"...stop...."

....

"...Ayase..."

.....

"...-sama..."






That's the last word that i could hear. My final clear image is Kuroneko face was slightly in a mess with her eyes looking straight at me, her mouth gasping open trying to make the sound, while water was rolling off her eyes, cheeks, lips, nose....

I think i dropped the bottle.

I think my leg gave way and my whole body collapsed onto my knee.

I think my head was leaning and buried over Kuroneko's shoulder.

My vision was blanked and my ears buzzed.

The only thing under my control was my arm, hugging and squeezing tightly around Kuroneko.

My chest pressed close to hers, feeling the hardness of the ropes but also a soft and warm sensation through my clothes.

But above all, my energy was sucked out of me, and I feel a tingling sensation running up from my stomach to my brain, stun it with a zap, then spread all over my body.

I think Kuroneko was saying something next to my ear but I could not focus. Ah.... such a sweet smell of shampoo

I could do nothing else but tighten my arm around Kuroneko more and more, as my whole body continuously and uncontrollably shivered.

We ended up staying there like that for a long while, as I totally lose my sense of time





I couldn't remember clearly what happened after that, but before i realised it, I already had untied Kuroneko ropes and uncuffed her. I think she did request me to do it, but my memories were fuzzy.

As Kuroneko was still drying up the damps of her futon with a hair dryer. I picked my body up, and carried it toward the door.

"Kuroneko….”

“…”

“….please don't tell what happened today to others."

"I know..."

…End of Chapter 3…

Spoiler for Chapter 4:

I finely chopped down the green onion. And as the pot came to boil. Yes. Now the miso soup was set.

The clock was ticking toward the 6:30 mark. There’s still plenty of time, so I took out the salmon pieces we bought yesterday. Washed and pat dry two of them. Then slightly salted on both sides.

As soon as the grilling pan heated up. It should be set to go.

I always grilled the fishes last. As the grilling scent could wake Ayase up from her sleep. And I also wanted to keep it warm when she had it.

Ayase is not a late waker by any means. It was just that I had been taking care of my two little sisters since young. Waked up earlier than others. Made their lunch boxes. Tended for their breakfast. And sent them to school. This had become almost a habit…

Not to mention I was greatly appreciated at Ayase for letting me to stay here. So this was just a small token of thanks

It was through her family connection so the rent was relatively cheap. Very close to university and relatively close to my part-time job. Then the place was almost fully furnished. In fact some of the household items and furniture were apparently bought new just before I moved in.

What’s a silly girl. She thought that I didn’t notice it, did she?

I really had been exploiting on Ayase’s kind, and weakness…

But it couldn’t be helped.

Of course I regretted to leave my sisters behind sometime. But I had absolute confidence in Hinata, who had grown up to become such a responsible and grown-up onee-san.

She actually was the one actively persuade me to move out.
(And frankly, I was also sort of afraid that with me around, my hobby and antic will ruin her development. But I have a feeling that damn Kirino already did it.)

But thanks to Hinata, I could be certain that Tamaki will be properly tended to even when I’m not around

This child however….

As I was thinking about it, Ayase stepped out of her room, already properly dressed. She wore a short skirt with black sock up to her knee. Then up above is a light purple sleeveless top underneath her favorite cardigan. Snd finally, since it’s still cold outside, a fur collar coat.

Most girls I had seen on the street would looks like an alluring bitch dressing like this. Those in magazines too.

But only Ayase and Kirino could truly pull it off. And I would put my Queen of Darkness title on the line to stand for those words

"Mor...morning..."

“Ah, did I wake you up? Give me 10 more minutes; the breakfast will be ready then …”

“Ah, sorry, Kuroneko, I…eh… my friend … eh….we has to attend an early lecture today.”

She has an awkward smile, glanced down, then sideway as she said it. Her fingers tips were still fidgeting in front of her chest.
“I see…. Take your lunch box with you at least….”

“Thank… Kuroneko….”

Her eyes again glanced down, as she received the lunch box from me.

“..and… I have some modelling jobs today, so don’t wait for me for dinner. “

“Okay”

“I’m leaving”

“Take care”

The door closed behind her.

Sigh. What’s a child. Such a terrible liar.

Ayase just now, looked like the 10 years-old Hinata whenever she made up excuses to not clean up the dishes.

Oh well.

Not my place to say. But she did get into it pretty deep yesterday. Probably was just feeling too awkward to face me.

It felt pretty unreal through.

However, the sight of water trickled down and rolling from my forehead to my cheeks and down to my bodies were too vivid for it to be a dream

Not to mention Ayase’s immensely cruel look. I would be honest; it scared me up a bit.

But kukuku. It’s still… well within my anticipation.

It’s actually even harder to deal with Ayase. As unlike the sibling idiots, right now she doesn’t even share her inner thought to anyone. Not to even herself.

Include when she was in great confusions, or pains.

That’s why the ritual aside; I have made it my mission to peel off this girl’s lies. And to expose her nature

Switched off the stove, and took off my apron. I then processed to walk back to my room, opened my locked drawer and took out a small notebook.

Ayase, you can’t run away from it. It had already become a part of the ending….

… written in this Destiny Record.

….End of chapter 4…

Spoiler for Chapter 5:

"Ayase....Ayase... did you even hear me calling you just now?"

"Ah.... Classmate #2. What was her name again?"

"That's so mean, Ayase. And you just think it out loud!!!"

Standing next to me is Mai Tanaka. A classmate from Legal Concepts 110 class. She's short, childish, cheerful and friendly to everyone…

Basically the reality version of Kanako's fake public image.

She's one of my new friends since starting university

"You have been in so much deep thought these past few days. What happened? Is it love? It is love, isn't it?"

"No... of... of course not. How could that be love?"

"Eh...? Tell me about it later then♪♪♪" Mai look around, lower her voice then made a cat smile as she tuned it.

Who are you? A gossiping housewife?

Ha... I sigh. Why were my friends all like this?

"So do you want to go having dinner with us today too?"

"Ah, no, I promised my housemate that I will be back for dinner tonight..."

"Housemate...eh...?"

It was three days since I last have proper conversation with Kuroneko. I had been skipping breakfast at home during those times. Then went out for dinner with the modelling agency the night before, and this girl and her group of friends yesterday. So that's why before I left home today Kuroneko did specifically tell me: 'Ayase, come home for dinner tonight, I will wait for you.'

"...it's Gokou... Gokou Ruri-senpai, is it? How's nice!!!"

"Yes, that's her."

“I’m so jealous of you, Ayase. Living with such a beautiful and kind senpai. A true Yamato Nadeshiko...."

Kuroneko? Nadeshiko?

Right.... Mai only saw her in ordinary outfit before

"... she cleans the house, cook your breakfast, and even make you lunchbox every day. Mine don't even clean her room.... I'm so jealous...."

Mai's dorm mate...? What's her name again?

" It's Sakurai... Akimi-san, isn't it? Wasn't she in 3rd year now?"

" I think her study was delayed one year due to an injury in middle-school. So she's actually 3 years older than us...."

So this Sakurai-san is the same age as Kirino's onii-san, eh?

"...You can't believe how childish she is. I mean who at that age still actually go out of the house wearing animal onesie...?"

Eh...? Is that a new trend? I remember Kirino once told me that she knows someone like that too.

"Anyway... sorry Mai. Can't come with you today..."

"That's okay. I will tell others that Ayase's was occupied by love sickness...♪♪♪"

"You..."

Mai ran away, before waved back with a robotic cat’s smile on her face.

I started to look out the window again.

Sigh

Ah.... what am I so afraid of...? Was I always this pathetic?

I turned on my phones to check up on the time, it's a bit past 4 already. Should go home soon.

‘KIrino? Should I ask Kirino about this?’ My fingered quickly moved toward Kirino’s phone address.

No…. it will be too difficult to explain to her through the phone. And she has been busy lately as well. I can’t bother on her

As I ran over my phone contact address. A contact name caught my eyes

‘Kirino’s onii-san’

Gulp

…..

I pressed ‘dial’, and slowly put the phone onto my ear, immediately a familiar voice could be heard from the other end.

“Ayase? Ayase? Is it really my angel Ayase?”

“Ah, onii-san. It has been awhile”

“Sorry, Ayase…”

“Eh….?”

“No matter how much you will beg for it, I already had my beloved sister Kirino. I can’t cheat on her by running away and eloping with you.”

“I will hang up now…”

“Wait, Ayase…wait…”

“Jeez…. I’m not the 15 years old girl who had crush on her best friend’s onii-san anymore, you know?”

“Awwww….”

He sounded disappointed. You are such a pervert, onii-san!!

But somehow I was glad that he hasn’t changed one bit after all these years.

“So…. Ayase. Why did you call me today? Is it love problem? Is my angel Ayase already found a guy she loves?”

“Of course, not!!”

What wrong with all these people?

But boyfriend, eh? The truth is, since entering high school, I and Kirino had always been flocked with all these confessions and love letters from guys. Kirino of course was too occupied with her onii-san to even give any of them a proper chance. For me, well…let’s see… maybe because I hadn’t met anyone that could move my heart….

“How’s about Kuroneko…?

“Eh…?”

“I said, how’s about Kuroneko…?”

“I…..with Kuroneko…? .... no….. it’s …. what are you talking about? It’s… not…”

“Why are you acting so frantic? Did Kuroneko get a boyfriend…? Did she bring one home…? Tell me his address, Ayase!! I have to meet that guy!!”

Ah he meant whether she had a boyfriend….

What’s an embarrassing thought that I just had.

“No, of course not. Which idiot will actually like that denpa girl? “

“That’s true….”

Oi, onii-san, did you just admit that you were an idiot?

Suddenly onii-san stiffed his voice.

“So, Ayase. Seriously. Why did you call me today?”

“I….”

“…”

“Eh… no…. forget about that”

I can’t ask onii-san after all.

“Wait, Onii-san?”

“Yes?”

“Is…is Kirino happy right now?”

There’s a moment of silence from the other end. Then…

“Of course. I promised that I will put my life on the line to make her happy…”

“…”

“And it’s not like anything has changed you know? She still practices track, and tends to her modelling job which you already knew, and goes crazy over Meruru and imouto eroge…”

“…”

“But even if she doesn’t have any of those. Even if the world collapses on her, I will still forever be on her side to keep her happy. You can have my words on that!”

Ah… No wonder my past self did fall in love with him.

“You… are not doing any strange to Kirino, are you…?”

“Ah….no…. Of course not…. I think… ”

You pervert siscon…

“Please take care of her. My dearest friend…”

“Certainly”

“I will never forgive you. No, I will kill you again and again. If you ever ever make her cry”

“Please do”

“That’s all, onii-san… sorry for taking too much of your time….”

“Wait, Ayase…”

“Yes…?”

“I should have told you this months ago. But sorry for stealing your best friend from you…”

“Ah, don’t be silly onii-san… I will hang up now”

“Take care”

I hang up my phone, and put it back into my pocket

Ah…. I am glad for Kirino. I am so glad for her.

She’s now being with her beloved onii-san. There’s no reason for me not to be happy with that.

There’s no reason, right?

…End of Chapter 5…

Spoiler for Chapter 6:

I exited the elevator to our floor. Sigh. Is there any excuse that I could pull out to avoid seeing Kuroneko today?

I don’t know why but it’s just too hard to face her right now.

I had been avoiding looking straight into her eyes as much as I could. But if we have dinners together, it will become obvious.

It’s not like I was embarrassed about that night.

More like because every time I looked at Kuroneko’s face, that image of her bounded up, being in a slight mess, looking up directly at me, while was begging me to stop…. just kept reappearing...

But worse is this complicated feeling inside of me… I don’t know how to describe it. But it’s almost like a desire. Of wanting to reach deeper and deeper into that white skin, mess the inside of her body up, taint her inner soul with the filth of my hands, before watching her corrupted body slowly wither…

…ah….

Did all of Kuroneko chuuni mumbo-jumbo finally got into my brain? What was I thinking just now…?

Anyway

I finally was just steps away from our apartment front door….

Let’s just go in. Ayase, since when have you became so weak?

No, I can’t

I can’t. I can’t. I can’t

I should run away from here first. Then I can think of excuses later.

I will face her tomorrow. I only need a bit more time. That’s all

As I turned away, kept my head down and headed back toward the elevator, a voice could be heard from directly in front of me…..

“Where do you think you are going? Ayase….?”

I slowly raised my head. And just several metres in front of me, standing Kuroneko….

In her hand was a bag from nearby convenient store …

And she was not smiling.

Ah… she caught me …

…………………………………………………………………………….

“So… Ayase….”

I was kneeling Seiza-style in the living room. Eyes glancing toward the floor

In front of me was Kuroneko, sitting on a bench sofa with both her arms and leg cross.

“Why have you been avoiding me…?”

“I was….just…”

“…”

“…”

I could not think of any fitting excuse for it

Kuroneko sigh.

“Regarding those rituals, I thought we already agreed to fully share our thoughts over any concerns? “

“No, It’s not that, it was because…”

“…”

“…”

No I can’t tell her that either.

Sigh, what I am even doing… Getting scolded by my roommate like this

“I have been really worried about you these past few days, I was afraid something happened to you. “

….

“Ayase…?”

“It’s…it’s not Kuroneko-san’s business anyway…” I muttered

“Oh…?”

Ah, crap. I accidentally blurted it out loud….

“Really. So it’s not my business…?

Kuroneko ‘s vent was almost popping and twitting out of her forehead. But then suddenly her face was stiffened. Like some thoughts were forming inside of her head. And then THAT happens….

“This is exactly why your best friend left you. “

“Eh..? “

I slowly raised my head; my eyes are wide opened with shocks.

In front of me, Kuroneko cracked the cruellest provoking smile that I have ever seen from her.

“Want me to repeat it again? I said that’s why your best friend left you. “

“…Ki…Kirino…? What does she have to do with this…?”

“Everything… Exactly because you kept everything to yourself. That’s why Kirino left you…”

“….”

I could not blurt out a single word…

“Sigh. You really were rubbed on by those two selfless idiot siblings. You should have told her ‘Kirino, come with me to Meiji Univeristy, I will be too lonely by myself’. That idiot won’t ever say no to her friend like that…”

“…”

“Am I wrong?”

“,,,”

As I hold onto my silence, Kuroneko even cracked up a more provoked tone…

“But you regretted it, didn’t you. You regretted to let her go, didn’t you? “

No, you are wrong….

“Oh, can’t say anything back. I hit the bull eyes, didn’t I…?”

I could no longer content the anger…

“No, it was not true. I never had such selfish thought….”

“… I really did wish for Kirino to go after her onii-san. She was so full of sorrow without him around. So I had given her my full support...Even when….”

No, this’s not true. Stop rewriting my thought…

“….Even when I hate it……Even when my dearest friend was leaving me. Even when I no longer will have anyone to look up to anymore…”

I clenched my fists, rising my body up from my kneeling position… almost screamed out loud.

“You don’t know anything about me. You don’t know how I felt. Stop pretending you do….”

“Of course I do.”

Eh…?

Unexpectedly, facing my full rage was Kuroneko’s sadden smile. And a deep sorrow in her eyes.

It was such a drastic change from her earlier provocation’s look, that it slowly evaporated my rage…

“Of course I do know. As I felt the same way…”

“…”

“….this is not like the time she left to US, you know. At least back then we still barely know each other…”

“…”

“… how many years have it been since then? How many things have happened between us? You think I won’t feel painful when seeing my dearest friend now picking a different path from mine?”

There was such deep sadness in her voice. And that’s when I realised it: Kuroneko was right.

She was just like me. In fact she was even closer to Kirino that I did.

Did Kuroneko also experience the same frustration, sadness, disappointment that I had? Did she also selfishly want Kirino to sacrifice her love to stay back with us?

As if could read my thought, she cracked out a mocking smile again:

“Kukukuku, I was not such a fragile girl like you through. My magical defense to that girl’s curse is much higher than yours…”

You totally ruined the mood, Kuroneko…

But as soon as she finished her sentence, her face once again stiffened. And this was one of the few times that I ever saw her looking so serious.

“We were really worried about you back then. You know? Kirino… and I.”

“….”

Something started to build up over in my throat. Prevent even a single word coming out of it

“Back then, you were also avoiding us like you did now. Didn’t even answer our calls. And stopped going to our meetings…”

“…”

“Kirino would have occasionally called me and cried to me in the middle of the night about it….”

“…”

“… so I don’t want that to happen again….”

Kuroneko got off her seat, came over, knelt down in front of me, and put a hand onto my cheek. And then she said with her most sincere smile:

“… I know that I can’t replace Kirino…. But I’m here for you...”

“…”

“So please don’t keep things for yourself anymore. All right?”

It’s not fair, Kuroneko.

What you just did was so like Kirino….

No. That actually was more touching than everything that I ever had experienced ….

What would you do if I really fall for you? You damn denpa girl….

I answered, as tears starting to roll down my cheeks…..

“Yes… “



………………………………………………………………………………………………………..

As the clock ticked to 11:00 mark. I started to switch off the light and head to my futon. Have to wake up early to make breakfast tomorrow too.

Ah… What’s a long day.

Scared the freshmen with my introduction at works. Then go home and make a girl younger than me cried like a child. What’s a pure lump of evil I have become.

Couldn’t be helped through, I was just following what was already written in my Destiny Record.

Ah, I have to call Kirino later and tell her that everything is okay. Called her yesterday asking about Ayase and she was freaked out a bit.

This afternoon, after cried for a while. Ayase started to calm down. We then have a relatively quiet dinner. And I told Ayase that I will take care of the dishes. So she can take bath first and work on her study.

She strangely obediently followed whatever I told her.

I still didn’t know why she avoided me in the first place. But at least, it looked like a massive pressure was lifted off her.

As I started to drift into my sleep, there was a knock on my door.

“Ayase…?”

Ayase slightly opened the door and leaned her head in…

“Kuroneko….” She muttered “…can I sleep with you tonight..?”

“Sure . Come in, let me help you to take out the futon….”

“There’s no need. I think we can both fit in yours…”

“…”

Ayase took my silence as a grant of permission, and started to move into my futon.

“Good night, Ayase”

“Good night…”

There was not a lot of space so I instinctively turned side way facing away from her.

There was a movement inside the futon, and suddenly I found Ayase burying her face onto to my back. Both of her hands held onto my pajama….

“Ruri-senpai…”

“I told you not to call me th…”

“Please let me call you senpai just for today…!”

“Ah…… Okay…”

Ayase tone was so sincere that it stood down my protesting

“Ruri-senpai….”

“…?”

“I’m sorry that I made you and Kirino worried….

“…”

“…also..."

“…”

“You know, I never thought of you as a replacement for Kirino….”

“…I know…”

“And…”

“….”

“I was really really lonely back in those early days of college….”

She sounded like something stuck on her throat.

“That’s why… thank you. Thank you for being here for me…” Ayase’s hands started to shiver a bit as she held onto my back.

Ah… she realised it…

With Ayase still leaning on my back, the futon was now even more packed as we both stuck to only one side of it

Still

I had a feeling both of us would have sweet dream tonight.

…End of Chapter 6….

Spoiler for Volume 1 Epilogue :

“And so this girl was in tears while saying ‘Queen of Darkness Kuroneko-sama, I humbly surrender both my eternal soul and this body to you. And will be your faithful loyal servant until the day we could conquer both realms’ ”

“That’s not fair, Kuroneko, you said you will not tell her…... Also I didn’t say those lines …. Kirino, don’t believe her, I didn’t say any of that…..”

It was a warm day in May. Once again it’s just the three of us: I, Ayase and Kuroneko meeting up in the Akihabara maid café.

And once again, I was sitting here opposite to Ayase and Kuroneko, smiling while watching the two of them all over each other like two idiots.

“Hey, Kirino. It was not true. Let’s me explain….Kuroneko… stop misleading her”

I have to be thankful toward Kuroneko through. When she told me that she would do something about Ayase situation earlier this year, I surely didn’t expect her to move into Ayase’s apartment like that.

Thank to that, Ayase had gotten back to her old self again.

Not to mention, my Ayase actually is a very pure and innocent girl. As I could not be there to protect her, it’s great to know that she now would be in a safe hand.

But still…

Sigh. I’m so jealous watching these two from the sideline like this. How did my two best friends manage to steal each other from me…?

…End of Volume 1…

Chapter 7-12 were edited into the next post below (due to word limits)

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Edit: Chapter 7 onward for those who don't want to load xD

Spoiler for Chapter 7:

My roommate is a denpa girl.

Name is Gokou Ruri, but she’s more well-known with her circle of friend as Kuroneko.

For social, she tended to wear dark and heavy gothic Lolita clothes, which she made herself. This was originally inspired from her early love of Maschera anime. But cosplaying purpose aside, I think it’s also strangely fitting on her, probably due to her white skin and small doll-like stature.

Since knowing me and Kirino, her wardrobe had been expanded quite a number, mostly for more general purpose. But overall she’s still quite rough when it comes to daily fashion, especially for college and part-time job in a local bookstore.

Despite saying that through, I found her fashion sense to be quite charming… In some way, I did admire her style as it gave her a traditional, but very independent and mature aura. Some of my friend even described her as Yamato Nadeshiko when seeing her in casual college dresses

Like her fashion, she also has a distinctive way to communicate.

Personally I could pick up most of what she meant. But her line often was littered with chuuni vocabularies, and more often than not would puzzle unfamiliar audiences.

Chuuni saying, you knows? Like “behold the Queen of Darkness” for introduction, or “let’s us rejoice this feast, Denizens of Dark Realms” for dinner, or ……

“Kukukuku. How does it feel to having your soul ensnared by the same mischievous ploy that you once beset on me, O Holy Dark Angel?”

…oh, I forgot to mention. But when there were only two of us, she had also showed some over-passionate enthusiasms into roleplaying of being my ruler or captor.

These were probably the only time for her to actually combine her chuuni talks with actions. As she would have been arrested in public otherwise…

And for what I did last time to her, today she did return me the whole full favour ….

“Hmmm, have to say through these ropes really look vulgar on you…”

“Then stop staring, you pervert. And uncuff me!!”

“Say, the one who didn’t even wear bra under her shirt today …”

“It… it was because the bra strap was digging onto my skin last time…”

Kuroneko made an ‘Eh, really?’ gesture, and then while still having that mocking laugh, she started to wander around my bounded self like I’m some sort of decorative trophy.

Ah… my ear is getting hot with embarrassment.

Stop staring; don’t look at my chest…

The reason that I was so conscious about it right now is because without wearing a bra, and being strongly bounded by these ropes, my loose light-purple T-shirt ended up hugging tight onto my skin. And…. displaying the shape and… everything of my chest to naked eyes….

Ah, what did I even think dressing like this? I forgot that Kuroneko burst was smaller than mine, and she was wearing a padded one-piece swimsuit last time.

“Stop it, Kuroneko… I’m serious. This is too embarrassing”

“Wouldn’t that normally excite you?”

Don’t talk like I am such a deviant….

“..and relax… I have seen you naked before…”

It’s true. She had seen me naked several times before. The most recent is during our onsen trip to celebrate our graduation.

But the way I am now, it would have looked even more indecent than simply being naked

“Hmm, I want to take a picture of this and send to Kirino.”

“Don’t. I will kill you…. then kill myself…. if that happens”.

I was half-crying as I said that…

“…”

Kuroneko shrugged her shoulders. Did she seriously think of doing it?

“Either way. You really did a number on me last time, Dark Angel Ayase…”

She reverted back to her chunii mode

“…It’s now my turn to return the favour”

She pushed me laying down on my bed facing up. And after glanced at my arms to make sure that they were not in an uncomfortable position, she climbed on top of me and sat on my stomach.

And then she reached to her back pocket…

“Let’s see how you gonna deal with this, Dark Angel…”

“Kuroneko… ? You surely don’t mean to….”

In her hand was a while feather, the type she often used to make our cosplaying wing with.

“Kukuku. It’s not too late to apologise now…”

“Wait, this must be a joke….”

“…”

“No. Not my chest… not my chest…”

“…”

“Stop…ah…. or I will kill you… I will seriously kill you…”

“Ah… stop…ahhaha….please stop… Kuroneko…”

“Don’t… no… Kuroneko-samaaa…ah…”

“Kuroneko-sama… aha…. Queen of Darkness… please…stop…”

“Kuroneko…Kuroneko-nee sama… I was wrong… ah… please… forgive me… forgive Ayase…”



Ah…

Father… mother…. forgive me. Your daughter can’t become a bride anymore…

Kuroneko eventually satisfied and get off my body. As I lay lifelessly on my side, still bounded by the ropes… felt like my body and soul was totally violated

“Ayase, get up. Or the rope will block your arm’s blood circulation …”

“Please let me die… I don’t want to live anymore…”

“Stop being so dramatic… get up…”

Kuroneko tried to push me up, but my lifeless body just leaned right back at her….

So kneeling right behind my lifeless body, Kuroneko started to make a long sigh before moving her lips toward my left ear and whispered to it….

“Get up, Ayase….”

“… or I gonna grope those indecent breasts with my hands next …”

Eh…?

“Good. Stay still there, let me untie you…”

“…”

“Don’t be so tense… Ayase… relax a bit…”

“…”

Silence covered the room as Kuroneko started to slowly uncuffed, then untied the rope from me…

My body instinctively tensed up every time those small arms started to wrap around my body from behind to reach for a knot….

“And that is… done. Look, you should put those creams on that small rope mark on your right arm. It worked quite well the last time I tried it…”

“…”

“Ayase…?”

“…”

“Your face looked red, what happened…?”

“It’s.. it’s not Kuroneko-san’s business…”

“Why are you sulking…?”

“…”

“Kukuku, you want me to grope your breasts that much…?”

“That’s not it, dummy!”

“…”

“…”

“…did I overdo it?”

“…”

“I’m sorry…”

“It’s late already. Kuroneko-san. Good night…”

I lay back onto my bed, covered my whole body and my face with a blanket. Kuroneko just stood there for a bit, probably to reflect over her action. Then turned off the light, told me good night and left the room.

Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!

Don’t say sorry now after all that, you pervert rapist…..

And why was I so frustrated for?

It’s all Kuroneko-san faults for saying all of those weird things.

How could anyone make such an indiscreet remark, and then just walked away like that?

Ah!!! I am too agitated to sleep….

…End of Chapter 7….

Spoiler for Chapter 8:

Sigh….I wonder if I was just sexually frustrated….

“Sighing like that will make your happiness fly away, you know?”

I slowly looked up toward the direction of the voice. Standing there while making a finger-pointing pose was my class mate, Mai Tanaka …

“You were absent-minded a lot lately. Is it still that same love problem you had last time?”

“No, it was different, and it was not lov…”

“Ayase, a guy like that isn’t worth for you to pay attention to… Geez…. Making his girlfriend worried like this…”

“I said it’s not about love. And… why do you think it is a guy anyway….?”

“So, Ayase is into girls, eh…?”

“It... It’s not that…. And I said it was not about love…” I half screamed that out in embarrassment.

“Awww…. And I thought our love was mutual!!! “

“…”

“Still no matter if it’s a guy or girl, that person should have been head-over-heel to such a perfect woman like you, Ayase.”

“Mai. Stop it. or I really will have to punish you…”

“Nooooo…I made Ayase angry!! ”

Mai, covered her head with both hands, while cracking out a joking grin. What’s a trickster I had as friend…

“So, Ayase… honestly what’s in your mind…?”

I guess it’s not really matter if I tell her.

“I have this… friend. A very close friend. She recently has played some mean tricks on me…”
“…I mean, I don’t think it was out of malice or anything. And it’s not like I…..hate it. But because I didn’t know how to react to her jokes, that friend thought that I was angry at her. “

“Ayase. If she’s your friend and it was simply just some fun teasing. Then just return the favour, it will send her a clear message that you don’t mind it…”

My eyes wide opened as I almost jumped up from my seat

“Mai, you are a genius!! I never thought about it that way….”

“Eh…?? So my advice was useful? I only said whatever was in my head just now. Ehehehe, my advice solved Ayase’s love problem...”

I said it was not love!! But well, I would let it go this time, since this girl just gave me such a good suggestion.

Yeah, I should not dwell into what happened. As long as I act normally for this coming session, Kuroneko won’t be troubled by what I happened last time.

Maybe I should go to library and make sure that I would be well-prepared today. Wait for it, Kuroneko!!


…………………………………………….


“Kukuku, let’s me see what you have in stock for me today!!”

Kuroneko cracked her usual mocking smile again, as I entered her room. She once again was in her blue one-piece swimsuit, but this time lying flat on her stomach while reading a Maschera doujin.

Since the last incident with my… my chest; Kuroneko had been acting over-sensitive toward me these past few days. As if she tried to avoid reminding me of it… So it was only after today dinner, and after I enthusiastically told her to prepare, that Kuroneko has started to gain back some of her usual composure.

So apparently the plan already started to work. Good job, Classmate #2!!

“I already can see though your true Diabolic ability, Dark Angel. None of your holy attribute attack will work on me today…”

‘We will see about that Kuroneko’. I was thinking that as I placed down the cardboard box that I was holding on my hands. Make sure she didn’t see the content inside

Still with a cold, expressionless front to hide my intention, I walked toward Kuroneko, asked her to kneel up from her position, and once gain handcuffed her arms to her back…

“So… we won’t go with rope today…?”

“This alone is enough.”

My emotionless voice, serious tone, then the sudden shift from our usual activities surely surprised Kuroneko, as I could sense that uncertain feeling in her voice. Yes. The plan was working quite well.

Still maintained my overall silence, I started to take out Kuroneko’s cosplaying cat ear and catgirl chokers from her drawer and put them on a now very confusing Kuroneko.

Finally I reached into the brought-over cardboard box, took out my secret weapons and showed them to her.

“A blindfold and ear plugs…?”

Just waited for it Kuroneko….

“I had enough of your antic, Gokou Ruri. I will have to put you down to your place today…”

As I was putting those ear plugs on her, I switched my speaking tone to a more spiteful one, and staring her down with my best impression of ‘you-are-dead-to-me’ look. Already tested the earplugs myself, that line should be the final thing that she could hear.

Then for the last piece, I took out my cell phone and make sure she saw that right before her eyes were completely covered with the blindfold.

Once set, I put my phone back to my back pocket. Then I slowly moved away from Kuroneko and sit on her study chair, and just patiently and quietly observe her from there.

It would only take a couple more of minutes, as expected, for Kuroneko to break the silence…

“Hey… Ayase…this is… boring… let’s just do something else today…”

“ Ah … I…. I just remember…. that I needed to do an assignment tonight….. So uncuff me… Ayase…”

She repeated that a couple of times. The shivering in her voice immediately gave her bluffs away, and indicated that she has fell right into my trap….

Haha, Kuroneko, even with all the wisdom in the world, none could stand against things that’s unknown to them.

This’s especially true to one with such a vivid imagination as yours.

That’s why if your hearing, vision, and movement are robbed. You will be left with limitless number of possibilities on things that could happen.

And to assist on that, I purposely acted cold, and also gave her mind something to work with: that almost-empty cardboard over there, and the fact that I took out my cell phone just now….

Modern cell phones. Such a magical device, full with practical ultilities. That alone should put Kuroneko mind in great confuse over what could happen.

Maybe I took her pictures and post them onto her SNS?

Maybe I called up her friend up to show them this pathetic sign of her.

Or even worse, it could be some deviant strangers that I met in college…

So, entertain me, Kuroneko, let’s your imagination playing with you today …

After asking me a couple of time with no response, Kuroneko tried to stand up from her kneeling position. But without her arm to keep the balance, she immediately fall flat forward down to her futon.

She then struggled to turn her body around facing up and try to use her leg to sit up again. But as she realised something, she immediately close her leg, with an embarrassing look on her face…

I guess, if she thought that I am taking her pictures, or there are other people in the room. That would have been a vulgar pose to display herself to.

At time she would make some sharp head turn as if she could hear a voice from behind her. I think her mind already started to play trick on her.

Seeing the usually-calm Kuroneko being frantic like this normally would have been satisfying enough….

But best of all is that expression she’s having. One with genuine fear and uncertainty, as she started to breathe harder and harder with every slight movement. As if her heart was racing and her chest gonna burst open anytime….

So cute, Kuroneko. You are so cute right now.

I wanted to lock her into a secret cage just like this. Wouldn’t it be a bliss coming home every day to this sight?

Ah….. I would like to capture this look on her face with my phone. But I didn’t want to risk showing this expression of her to anyone. Not to her otaku friends. Not to oniisan. Not to even Kirino…

After a while, Kuroneko’s breath started to slowly catch up on her. I guess the fact that nothing happened to her after so long, calmed her down a bit.

Of course I couldn’t let that happens,….

I started to wear one of my thick winter glove on my right hand… moved toward her back, and grope her right breast with it….

What’s a pity, I could only felt a soft sensation with this thick glove

“Ekk….”

She fiercely responsed, turned around and desperately hid her chest behind her shoulder, but I has already move away around to her side. This time I use my bare left hand to trace down her side-belly.

“Who…?”

“…”

“Ayase… right? Ayase…?”

I response to each of her question by groping her in various places, inner thigh, arm, cheeks, mixing with lightly tracing her body using my left hand on her leg, back , chest and foreheads …

As I was dancing around her while randomly doing it, from Kuroneko perspective, she must feel like many people are touching her from every direction….

“Stop, not there “

“...”

“No!!! Don’t. ”

Yes, they are marvellous. Those scared and terrified expressions of yours, Kuroneko. Your normally adorable face always looked the most charming with them on.

More, show me more of them…

Now you know what I felt last time, Kuroneko!! But even your most sincere apologies would not be able to stop me now….!!

And then something which I didn’t anticipate, happened…

*Sob…*

Eh…?

*Sob…sob…*

Kuroneko started to sob softly at first, but soon, it quickly grew to uncontrollably weeping….

“Ayase….”

“….”

“Help me…. Ayase…”

She turned her head glancing around the room, as she desperately called for my name…

“I’m sorry…” *sob* “Help me… Ayase….”

Oh… no….

There… there, don’t cry. I’m here…

I threw away the glove, got down to her sideand fully embraced her body with my arms. Only then that I realised: her small body was shivering violently as she tried but failed miserably to keep more of her tears from rolling down…

“Sorry, Kuroneko… I went too far, didn’t I?”

“…”

“ I’m sorry… It was just that you were so cute… I couldn’t stop.. “

Kuroneko’s body went stiff at first but then started to soften out as I gently stroked her hair.

“You did well, Kuroneko. You were so brave by yourself. Sorry for teasing you like this…”

Kuroneko’s body was so warm. And she smelled so good…

“Ah, don’t cry. It will ruin your beautiful face… “

“….and these cheeks…and lips….”

I said that as I was tracing my finger along her cheeks and rest between her soft lips

Kuroneko tensed up again, probably was still traumatised by what happened earlier. That’s when I realised she couldn’t hear my voices and was still not certain that it was me

“It’s ok, it’s me…” I whispered softly to her ear, but not sure if she could hear through those plugs

As she started to calm down, I rested her body down to my left arm as I still trace my finger across her face with my right. Such a cute little being I have in my arm here. Then I moved my lips to hers…

A wet and soft sensation. Then followed by more and more of it.

Did she like it? I guess it’s not really matter, as other than some initial resistance, I was then given reign to do as I wished. A pleasant and sensual feeling soon would start to spread from my head to around my body, submerge myself in it. And It felt like I was just slowly sinking down to the bottom of the ocean as if nothing would matter anymore. Nothing else worthy to think about, nothing but this kiss…

Kiss…?

I immediately moved my face away from Kuroneko’s, with my right hand instinctively moving up to cover my lips. Looking upward at me was Kuroneko. Her blindfold was slightly shifted during the motion, liberating her left eye vision. And now she was just lying there on my left arm staring at me with a trance look in her face…

“I’m sorry….”

I quickly lift her up, took the blindfold, earplugs and the handcuffs off her. …

Kuroneko slowly stood up, still with a trance look on her face…. She then turned away from me, leaving me still kneeling in the same position in disbelief…

“I’m sorry… Kuroneko… I… I…your…I”

“It’s Ok…”

?

“I … I also lost myself sometime when we do this….”

?!?!?

“ And… it’s.. it’s not strange for friends to kiss anyway… right? I think. ”

Every of those words were like a stab at my heart

“You are right, Kuroneko. Please excuse me…”

I quickly got up, left Kuroneko room and made sure I fully shut the door….

As I walked away from it, tears were streaming down my face, as I kept a hand over my mouth to stop myself from bawling out like a kid…

That’s so mean, Kuroneko.

That’s just so so mean.

It was my first kiss. I would never kiss any of my friends on the lip like that. Not even Kirino….

I rushed back to my room, and bury my face onto the pillow trying to prevent myself from uttering a sound….

The pillow cover was quickly dampened up, as streams of tears still violently flew out of my eyes.

You are so cruel Kuroneko…

What you said… hurted me so much…

It’s so painful…

This pain in my chest… There’s no denying it…

This was the same feeling that I had after being rejected by Kirino’s onii-san…

It should not have happened. How could this even happen…?

Ah….

Since when did I fall in love with that denpa girl…?

…End of Chapter 8….

Spoiler for Chapter 9:

“Hmm… it’s certainly rare for you to call me up for a private face-to-face talk like this, Kuroneko. What happened…”

“Well… “

Sitting opposite to me was Kirino Kousaka . The bitchest girl that I had ever met. She’s also a hopeless brocon. And a shameless siscon… unsure how that even worked. A brainless airhead, who has no style or any artistic sense.

Incidentally she is also my dearest friend.

One of the few that I would gladly put their happiness before mine

We were meeting in a café shop near Kaoru’s place. I had insisted to come to Kirino’s place for this talk, but I guessed this sly pervert didn’t want me to intrude the Kousaka love nest. So we ended up meeting somewhere in the middle instead.

We could have met at our usual spot in Akihabara, but I didn’t want to risk any chances of Ayase walking on us…

“So… Kirino… I want to consult you on something”

“Go ahead”

“I have this friend of mine, and she has been in a bit trouble lately…”

“Yeah … yeah… I know this friend of yours; tell me what happened to her…”

Kirino still casually sipped on her straw…

I instinctively glanced down on the table while fidgeting with my fingers…

“Hmmm…”

“?”

“ I… I think she has just triggered a yuri flag…”

No response…

I slowly raised my heads up. And in front of me was an utterly shocked Kirino, with both eyes and mouth wide open.

“What… you… I mean your friend…? Who… Ayas…no…it can’t be… Wait!!”

Like trying to catch on her thought, Kirino closed her eyes and rested her wide forehead on her fingers tips… Before trying her best to form a clear question.

“What made you… ah... I means…your friend think that she triggered a yuri flag?”

“Her roommate kissed her… on the lip…”

“You pervert cat!! You stole my Ayase’s first kiss…”

Kirino almost jumped up from her seat, leaned forward and pull myself up by my collar. Aghh!! This girl had more strength in her arm than I thought… she was seriously choking me …

“…how dare you, pervert… Make a move on my pure pure innocent Ayase…..”

“It… it’s not me…. It’s my … friend. Remember? It’s not me…”

….

…

…

After felt like 10 minutes, and the commotion died down. Kirino finally released me. But now she was sitting flat on her seat, buried her face in both of her hands in silence, while occasionally mumbling ‘I can’t believe it…’ and ‘How could this happen….’

“So… eh… Kirino…?”

“Could it be just a joke…”

Kirino finally spoke out, still buried her face onto her hands

“You means..?”

Kirino looked up and stared at me

“I said… could it be just a friendly kiss? A joke? An accident? That girl fell on top of... your friend and accidentally their lips touched?”

“Not possible, that was a very adult kiss, with tongue and such…”

“…”

Kirino looked like her strength was leaving her as her entire body melt down to the table

“… and I think…”

“…”

I glanced down and started swirling my drink.

“…I think the other girl was crying ….”

….

….

We were surrounded by the suffocating silence again. As every second felt like tens of minutes. Before Kirino finally broke it.

“Aghhhhh!!!!”

Kirino started to half-screaming, looking toward the celing, while messing up her own hair with both hands.

“It can’t be helped!!!”

“Kirino?”

Kirino face then turned dead serious as she looked straight into my eyes

“So how did your friend feel about it…?”

…End of Chapter 9….

Spoiler for Chapter 10:

Soon after we finished our talks and Kirino had given me some useful advice, I got a call from Ayase over the phone asking me to pick up some sugar on the way home as we were running out.

It was Ayase’s turn to cook today, and that call just now, confirmed that she will be home for dinner.

Such a good timing. Everything definitely flew my way today….

Not to mention, at least there is still 50-50 chance that Kirino didn’t realise her consultation was on me and Ayase. It’s not like back in high school days where she knew exactly how many friends do I have outside of our circle, right?

…or that’s what I hoped….

Anyway…

I missed the train back so couldn’t get home till near dinner time. As I opened up the door to our apartment, Ayase was standing right there near the door step waiting for me, still wearing her pink apron and animal slipper…

“Ah, Kuroneko. Welcome home.”

“I’m…I’m back”

“I just finished up cooking dinner, please sit down. Dinner will be ready in minutes…”

“Wait… that...I could do it myself”

“Don’t be so formal. Let me take your bag back to your room for you. Sit down, Kuroneko… Your favourite TV show will start soon.”

Ayase took my bag, and my coat off me. Then smiled back as she walked toward my room…

“I also cooked your favourite hamburger steak today, you said it was delicious last time right…? I also bought the cake that you liked…”

“…”

Gulp

This was actually the reason why I had to go consulting it with Kirino, rather than trying to handle it myself.

Unlike previously where she will just avoid me, since that incident, Ayase had suddenly started to act really friendly toward me…

…over friendly in fact…

And I didn’t realise that being treated like one of those heroine in host clubs manga would feel so suffocate.

She had been going out of her way to do her part of the housework. And specifically did everything to please me whenever she can. And she always kept that business smile on her the whole time…

Professional model is scary, how could they manage to smile like that 24/7?

…..

“Here is yours Kuroneko..”

“Ah, thank”

“Taste that hamburger steak, Kuroneko. I tried something special today…”

“Ah, ok. Thank you for the meal”

Ayase sat down opposite to me, rest her chins on palms as she happily watching me picking a piece of that hamburger with my chopstick and put into my mouth…

“How does it taste….?”

“It tastes really good; the spicing and dressing source were perfect…”

It really was…

“Ehehehe… I am glad that it’s to your liking…♪♪♪”

Ayase didn’t even start eating until a bit later, and just spent those couple of minutes there continue watching me eating….

…Still with that smile on her face…

Gulp

Uhhh…..

This is too awkward….

If that was really Ayase. Not some shape-shifting creature sent by the dark realm to assassin me. Then I need someone to kill me right now…

I planned to wait until after dinner, but I don’t think I can last till then…

“Say, Ayase. Can I ask you something..?

“Don’t be silly…. Ku.Ro.Ne.Ko . Ask me anything…”

Let’s see. What did Kirino say again?

‘…that girl sounded like a very innocent and naïve girl. So tell your friend don’t be so upfront with it. Just keep things subtle and slowly confirm the other girl’s true feeling first…’

Got it, Kirino…

“Ayase, do you want to *beep* me”

Ayase dropped her chopstick. Her eyes were wide open with shock…

“…Kuroneko…what did you just say…?”

“I mean, Ayase. Do you want us to %$^&, or &@#$&, or…”

“I heard it the first time already….”

Ayase face turned as red as a cooked shrimp as she buried her face into her hands in embarrassment and muttered out:

“That is sexual harassment, Kuroneko!! I will kill you. Then call police on you….”

Ah. Welcome back, Ayase.

“So… Ayase, about that…”

“…please stop saying those vulgar words… ”

Even her ears and neck were now red with embarrassment. As she still buried her face completely onto her hands.

“Sorry, Ayase….”

“…”

“I was wrong when I tried to brush it off after you kissed me last time.”

“…”

“So I want to be real straight forward with you today. I need to know your true feeling….”

Actually I already anticipated this level of responses from her. I guess I did secretly want to tease her a bit

“…That’s why, Ayase, let’s put it in a more pleasant way… “

I tried to select the words more carefully this time

“Would it turn you on if I let you stripping me down and embracing my naked body …”

“…”

“…”

“A minute…”

“?!?”

“Give me a minute to recollect my mind…”

So still burying her face inside her palms, Ayase started to make some deep breath to calm herself down. Then as a minute nearly passed, she looked up toward me first, before glanced her eyes side way, still blushed all over her face.

“I… don’t know…. I never had such dirty thought about you, Kuroneko….”

“But you gave me such a deep kiss last time right…? Do you have the desire to go further than that?”

“I don’t know. I don’t know….”

She shook her head vigorously…

“Back then, I… I just thought that you were so cute. And before I realised it, I have already kissed you.”

Ayase now glanced down the table….

“… but. But after you just brushed it off, my chest started to hurt so much… So… maybe I…”

“I’m sorry…”

“You were a jerk that time, Kuroneko…. How could you response… that way…to a maiden… first kiss…”

That probably reminded Ayase of that painful piece of memory, as tears started to roll down her cheeks… And she struggled to mutter out anything else

My mind immediately was stuffed with guilt, as I get up my seat, and walked to her side of the table. Still standing up, I swinged my arms around Ayase head and embraced her face it into my chest… My head then rested on hers as my finger started to lightly brushed her flowing long hair.

Her sweet sweet shampoo scent filled my nose

“I’m sorry. Because you looked like you were regretting that kiss… So … I didn’t know… what to say….”

Ayase started to sob more violently in my arm. This poor girl…

“I …*sob*…. I thought that I was rejected…*sob*… I was afraid that you…you … will be disgusted by me… *”

“There’s no way I would….”

“… *sob*….I don’t want you… to leave…..*sob* Loneli… … I was so afraid ….you will *sob* … So I tried to be… a good friend…”

And I thought she was trying to seduce me these past few days…

“Don’t leave ….Kuroneko… I will try….do… Anything …*sob*… you want”

“Stop being silly, Ayase. There’s no way that I will leave you…”

“…”

“You already bid your soul to me. I have that eternal contract to uphold to…”

“…”

Those words probably calmed Ayase down, as Ayase slowly stopped crying, but she still buried her face deep inside my chest.

“… Ayase…”

Kirino’s words started to play inside my head:

‘So how did ‘you’ feel about it…?’

“You know….that kiss…. I didn’t hate it…”

“…”

“…however despite my wisdom has lasted for millenniums, unfortunately this body of mine is still of a mortal…”

“…. I myself still struggle to define a human romantic relationship… or the nature of our ritual even…. “

“That’s why, Ayase….?”

Kirino’s words of advice once again flashed inside my head

“…how’s about we try going out first, until the end of this year…?”

…End of Chapter 10….

Spoiler for Volume 2 Epilogue :

“Ah, welcome back Kirino. How is Kuroneko lately? You just went to see her right…? Oh, and how’s about a ‘welcoming home’ kiss?”

“Don’t be stupid….. And I haven’t even closed the door yet…”

Kirino shut the door between her lines, took her time to take off her shoe, and dropped herself to the sofa next to me

“Hey, Kyousuke, you don’t know what just happened today…” Kirino spoke in a melancholic tone, as she dropped her head leaning against my shoulder

“Tell me….”

“Kuroneko and Ayase, each has found someone they like.’

“Eh… seriously? “

“Yes. Awww…. I feel sort of lonely after hearing about it. And they are someone you know too…”

I felt my jaw almost dropped.

“Who…?”

“….”

“Who could it be? Was it Mikagami? Was he back already? Wait…Please do not tell me that it’s Makabe? Did that Makabe three-timing on Sena again?!?!”

“No, it’s not them. And I told you already, Makabe didn’t cheat on Sena with her brother. It was all just a misunderstanding from Sena part…”

“Then who could it be…?”

“…forget it. Based on your response, I don’t think you will understand anyway…”

Eh… was my sister always this cryptic?

“And why would you care about who they like? It’s not you this time, alright?”

Kirino started to pout. Ah, Jealous Kirino is just so cute….

“… And let me tell you, the people whom those two like are really amazing people. I would marry either of them in a heartbeat!!”

“Eh…?”

Kirino took off from my shoulder and stroll toward the kitchen…

“Hey, Kirino. Come back, tell me who they were!! Kirino, tell me who you think are more amazing than your brother….”

Kirino turned around, place a finger on her eye and stuck her tongue out in teasing.

“Nope!! You will know soon enough…”

…End of Volume 2….

Spoiler for Chapter 11:

The girl who I’m currently going out with is a denpa girl.

Obsessive with chuuni talk and gothic Lolita clothes. Her rude and frank personality often gives the impression that she was looking down toward the society or treating others like trashes.

From outsider’s point of view, she probably wasn’t much different with any of your typical spoiled otaku

But deep down inside, she is a kind-heart and passionate girl. Who care deeply for her friends, families, and would do whatever it takes to bring them happiness.

Even when sometime it came at her own cost.

She credited much of that trait to her, no, our dear friend Kirino. The one who I also was admiring.

Maybe that’s why it’s so easy for us to get along, despite our horrible first impression toward each other.

But wow, haven’t we really gone a long way since?

Her real name actually is Gokou Ruri. However I preferred to call her by her alias: Kuroneko, much like those close to her.

As she is one year my senior and studying in the same college, so I still have to address her as Gokou-senpai when we meet in campus. No need to say, but that often put both of us, Kuroneko especially, in awkward moments

Hmm… since we are dating, should I now move to first name basis? “Ruri”? “Ruriiii… ”? Like that?

Because at this moment I’m still struggling to find anything has changed about our new relationship.

Kuroneko already moved in with me earlier this year.

She already made me breakfast, and give me her hand-made lunchbox everyday

We went on a ‘date’ every now and then to buy clothes or try out a new restaurant. Even went to movies a couple of times together when I got free tickets.

We did enjoy festivals together several times before. Both summer festivals and Comiket ones (if those are counted as festivals). We even went to an onsen trip together (admittedly with Kirino and Saori).

Us two also had many intimate acts during our private times, and even k…kissed…

What was I thinking back then? Ah… so embarrassing…

I started to rest my head onto the desk and buried my face onto my crossed arms. Even my ears felt hot with embarrassment.

But I am kinda glad that I did it. Our relationship probably would never progress to this stage otherwise…

My heart started beating faster and faster. Ah….this must be the feeling of bliss…. Stop it Ayase, you are acting creepily like a love-struck schoolgirl!!

“That is such a pleasant smile you are having. Something good happened♪♪♪ ?”

Standing in front was Mai, a close classmate. Since when was she here…?

“ No… nothing.. nothing happened…”

“Ehehehe, you can’t lie with those blushed cheeks, Ayase. You promised me last time that you will tell me too. Come on, tell this onee-san what happened? “

Mai moved her face closer to mine, forcing me to glance my eyes away

“It’s just….I… The one I like, just confessed to me...”

Why did I blurt that out? Wasn’t that just pure bragging? What have you became, Ayase!?!? That is not who you are….

“Really?? Congratulation. Way to go, Ayase!! Let’s have a celebration later today just us two!! For today, my Ayase has finally found love. Before that, tell me what that person is like. Wait… let me guess…”
Eh…?

What is that person like?

A girl?

And that is when reality hit me.

I am currently going out with another girl.

There should be nothing wrong with it.

But it’s still abnormal to say the least.

How could I tell anyone about it? Will they even understand? Or should I keep a secret of Kuroneko’s gender?

Suddenly it hit me hard on how Kirino must have felt all this while. I knew all about her hardship. But only until now that I realised how difficult and painful it must be to hide the identity of the one you love from others…

This aching feeling inside my heart started to sink deeper…. And deeper…

“…oh I know, it’s Gokou-senpai, isn’t it?”

“Eh… how…?”

I looked up at Mai, who actually looked surprised at my reaction….

“Tck tck tck, Ayase… You thought you can hide it from me didn’t you? “

“…”

“Between classes, you always divert your eyes out of the windows toward Block D. Like you were searching for someone from those crowds. Those melancholic and sad eyes. It can’t be a mistake; they were eyes of a maiden in love!!”

“No … That was not true. I didn’t do it…” I protested

“Still denying, eh? Then my dear Watson, explains that blush on your face right now!!”

I could feel my face became red hot from that sentence alone. There was nothing I could do, but bury my face on my palms in embarrassment.

“Kukuku. You are guilty of lying to your friend about your hidden relationship with your cute senpai. Do you admit your guilt now?”

“Stop it, or I will die with embarrassment….”

I still hide my face in my palms so couldn’t see anything, but I could feel Mai dropped herself to the bench next to me. Like she was just waiting for me to calm myself down.

After a short while…. I was the one who broke the silence first.

“Don’t … Don’t you think it’s strange? About me going out with Kur…. Gokou-senpai…?”

“ Honestly. I was wondering who could make such a perfect girl like you so head-over-heel to at first….”

“…”

“…But when I met and realise that it’s Gokou-senpai, It totally make sense. I mean who can resist such beautiful and kind senpai. Ah…!!! Even flowers must have bloomed when she passed by…”

“But she is a girl, and we are not in high-school anymore….”

“Oh, are you still in doubt? Then let me have her then. I will marry whoever will cook for me and treat me that well!!!”

“…”

“Don’t stare at me like that, Ayase, I was just joking…”

“…”

“But honestly, don’t worry about it. Why would gender matter as long as there is love? And if anyone ever questioned you about I, I will personally beat that person up.”

Mai showed her usual robotic cat smile again as she bumped her chest with her fist. Jeeezzz… this girl…

“You can’t beat up anyone looking like that you know. Even primary school kids won’t afraid of you”

I finally broke out a smile. As I go for the teasing.

“How mean, Ayase…. You know I am sensitive about my height!!”

“Fine… fine… how about I treating you to a parfait as apology? For this and for lying to you earlier?”

“Eh…? Really? I won’t let you take that back… you know!!!”

I smile and nod my head.

“Then let’s head to Mose later for our celebration. As return, you can consult me anything about love. I was called Love Master by my friend in Year 6 you know… ”

“Sure… Sure…”

…End of Chapter 11….

Spoiler for Chapter 12:

“R…Ruri, you want a second helping…?”

I dropped the piece of green bean that I was trying so hard to hold on with my chopsticks.

Slowly glanced up at Ayase. Strange. She did not emit any of her usual killing aura. Just her usual sweet smile.

That meant I hadn’t done anything wrong, had I?

“I’m ok. This is enough for me.”

“Okay. Tell me if you change your mind, Ruri…”

“…”

“…”

“So…hmm… what is with the first name addressing…?”

“I….”

Ayase blushed a little, started to glance sideway, while playing with her long flowing hair with her finger.

“Since we are… dating. I thought I will try to address you a bit different…That’s all”

“I…I see”

“…”

“…”

“It feels awkward for you, does it..?

“Yes, only my parents called me that. It just…a bit hard to get used to it coming from you.”

“I see”

“…”

“So…It will be just Kuroneko then…”

Ayase spirit seemed to slump down a bit as we finished our dinner in silence.

………………………

After dinner, I was still washing the disk, while Ayase already went back to her room to prepare.

I actually did feel guilty for what just happened.

Ayase obviously tried to express her affection toward me, but I ended up just pouring a cold ice water bucket over it.

That’s what made this mortal body pitiful. It can’t cope with my wealth of knowledge when it comes to the handling of romantic relationship. If only my brain can handle with my wisdom, there would be plenty of things that I could have said in those situations to bemuse Ayase.
Like…

…hmm…

…hmm…

…

Maybe It’s better to consult Kirino on mortal romantic relationship…

But Kirino really will kill me this time if she realised that I was going to woo her best friend. Don’t think that airhead is this sharp, but I have a feeling that she already caught on my tail last time

I dried my hand with a towel, sighing as I knocked on Ayase’s door

“Come in…”

Ayase was sitting on her bed wearing her usual short skirt …

…but now with long black tight covering up to her upper thigh. Then up top, a thick wind jacket cover her whole upper half of the body

“You are not going out at this hour, aren’t you?”

“Of course not…”

Ayase then pump up her chest, smiling while saying gloatingly…

“…but I know your trick now.”

“Oh. Really?”

“You are a tickle monster, as long as I don’t expose my skins you won’t be able to do anything to me…”

“Really? Let me test your defence then Dark Angel”

I jumped on top of Ayase and start to tickle her side.

She is right, I could feel at least another two layers of clothes under this jacket. Let see… a T-shirt and her sport bra

“That won’t do, Kuroneko…” she said like teasing

“Hmm… how’s about here then”

With Ayase still lying on her back. I stood up, hold up her right leg, and tickle her under-foot.

“Hey…. (hahaha). That’s cheating, Kuroneko…. (Hahaha) You said that I can’t do that last time… (Hahaha)”

Ayase broke out in non-stop laughter. The tight did cover her sensitive skin well. But when it comes to under foot, she probably will still feel my touch even under a thick sock.

“Ahahaha… stop…. Kuroneko, I lost…. Stop”

Ayase yielded in the end as her eyes were in tears with laughter. So I stopped

But it was a strange feeling

I didn’t feel the same sense of triumph like always. Rather, seeing Ayase laugh so freely in front of me just put my mind at ease.

Maybe I really was just thinking too much. About what to do. How I should behave.

Maybe it’s best just to let our relationship develop naturally like this…

“Eh… Kuroneko?”

I ignored her, as I kissed the top of her foot….

Then her foot ankle, her shin, her knee, her lower thigh, and stop just right before the part where her tight separating the upper and lower thigh.

I then stick a finger into between the tight opening and her skin, and then glanced up toward Ayase….

“…May I?”

“…Sure… Kuroneko”

With permission granted, I then slowly peel the tight off her leg, uncovering the mesmerising silky skin underneath.

I didn’t realise that there was such a beautiful thing right so close to me all this time.

So I kissed the top of her foot again.

But it still felt a bit unsatisfying. Like kissing alone was not enough.

So I started to lick it.

Ayase’s whole body shivered, then again and again every time the tip of my tongue touched on her bare skin. I sneaked a peek up, and Ayase already hugging tight and hiding her face on a side under her favourite animal pillow.

How adorable, Ayase.

So I started to lick the gapping between her toes, and planned to continue down from there…

“No, Kuroneko…”

Ayase spoke out under her pillow

“… that, my feet are dirty…”

I was so ready to rebut on that. But don’t want to ruin the mood.

So I worked my way up her leg instead, her foot, her foot ankle, her shin, her thigh.

It’s just a mixture of kissing, licking, and sometime sucking on this never-ending, fascinate silky skin.

I didn’t even think about what to do, as it’s all started to become so natural to me. Like I could instinctively know where to move my lips toward to, and how to reignite Ayase’s sweet shivering.

It felt like a game honestly. Where it was my victory every time I could feel Ayase skin tensed up and shivered under my touch. And it keep going on, and going on like that until…

“Stop… Kuroneko…”

“?!?”

“… I… I think it’s too… too early for us…. To do…that…”

Ayake words were awakening me from my dreamy state. As I realised my lip had already touched the very upper of her inner thigh.

“…and… I … I… my heart hasn’t prepared… for it…yet…”

“Of course, Ayase”

I crawled along Ayase’s stretched body. Once I was right on top of Ayase, I started to kiss her forehead. And since her lips were right there, I gave it a peck too.

“So it’s my win today, yes? Since you called for the stop”

“Yes.”

Ayase’s face looked like she was still in trance, as I got myself up, wished her goodnight and exited the room.

Well, not a bad day. I have to say

That was so close through….

…End of Chapter 12….

The link to Fanfiction for Chapter 13-23 (as this post is limited by words =/)

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Originally Posted by risingstar3110

No one commented on anything? And I was afraid that my fanfict would have been destroyed the moment it's put up xD

But yeah fixed up a couple of things, include Kuroneko's monologue based on the term used in her favourite Maschera anime

No offense to you, but from my experience with my fanfics, they tend to not get discussed very much in these threads, unless its like a really major project or you get lucky.

As for the story, I liked what I saw so far and I very am interested to see how the BDSM relationship between Ayase and Kuroneko will progress. Thus far, it seems to me, based on the dialogue at the end of chapter 2, I take it Kuroneko and Ayase are switching, though I suspect, based on chapter 1, Kuroneko is primarily the submissive.

[risingstar3110]

Originally Posted by SPARTAN 119

No offense to you, but from my experience with my fanfics, they tend to not get discussed very much in these threads, unless its like a really major project or you get lucky.

As for the story, I liked what I saw so far and I very am interested to see how the BDSM relationship between Ayase and Kuroneko will progress. Thus far, it seems to me, based on the dialogue at the end of chapter 2, I take it Kuroneko and Ayase are switching, though I suspect, based on chapter 1, Kuroneko is primarily the submissive.

Ah thank a lot for feedback. I actually fear of harsh criticism much more than not so I'm OK with relatively low discussion. I actually plan of this as semi-open source at first, but was kinda afraid there will be too many ideas clashed.

Clearly the next part will be on the whole BDSM experience. Already had a good idea what gonna happen. But still reading around a bit on real life BDSM experience to make sure it portrays a bit more believable.

But yeah Ayase and Kuroneko did take turn switching as apparently in the actual novel (did the anime show it? I didn't watch the whole S2 honestly). I guess it also will kinda portray their struggling, Ayase in particular better to keep it in between role-playing and her day-to-day personality. There's not enough Ayase and Kuroneko normal dialogue in the novel through so I kinda afraid i will stray them both too much out of character

[SPARTAN 119]

Originally Posted by risingstar3110

Ah thank a lot for feedback. I actually fear of harsh criticism much more than not so I'm OK with relatively low discussion. I actually plan of this as semi-open source at first, but was kinda afraid there will be too many ideas clashed.

Clearly the next part will be on the whole BDSM experience. Already had a good idea what gonna happen. But still reading around a bit on real life BDSM experience to make sure it portrays a bit more believable.

But yeah Ayase and Kuroneko did take turn switching as apparently in the actual novel (did the anime show it? I didn't watch the whole S2 honestly). I guess it also will kinda portray their struggling, Ayase in particular better to keep it in between role-playing and her day-to-day personality. There's not enough Ayase and Kuroneko normal dialogue in the novel through so I kinda afraid i will stray them both too much out of character

Honestly with regard to the anime, I'm not sure, I only saw season 1, never read to the LNs or anything, so I had no idea Kuroneko and Ayase's BDSM relationship had any basis in canon.

As for the whole struggling with aspects like the role playing, I can how acting all chuuni would definitely be something of a departure from her normal personality.

Either way, though, looking forward to seeing how this progresses

[risingstar3110]

Originally Posted by SPARTAN 119

Honestly with regard to the anime, I'm not sure, I only saw season 1, never read to the LNs or anything, so I had no idea Kuroneko and Ayase's BDSM relationship had any basis in canon.

As for the whole struggling with aspects like the role playing, I can how acting all chuuni would definitely be something of a departure from her normal personality.

Either way, though, looking forward to seeing how this progresses

That was one of the funniest part in the novel. It's not too much of a spoiler, but first it was Kyousuke, and then later on Kirino did accidentally walk in the two very-excited looking Kuroneko and Ayase in the middle of their ritual/communication. Kirino's first line actually was:
"…Um… Ah… There are too many things I want to say, so I will start one at a time…". "So are you two going out?"

It totally was out of left field as well. But it's canon



Wrote the next part. But I probably have to reread and fix a fair bit later. Mostly because if i remember correctly there's only half of a prologue with Kuroneko as narrator in the LN. So it could be hard to mimic her line of thought

Also added it into the OP post

Spoiler for Continue of chapter 2:

So after dinner, while Ayase cleaned out the disk, I came back to my room, got change and patiently wait for her to finish.

According to what Ayase read, it's better to wear lightly so the clothes won't press too much onto our skin. And since we only started with basic pattern: simply typing a pentagon shape onto my chest, wearing a normal one-piece swimsuit will do.

I did't want to make the same mistake with Ayase yesterday when the collar of her loose T-shirt slip off and the tighten rope ended up making a mark of her neck.

Saying that through, it feels embarrassing to kneel on my futon only wearing a swimsuit.

Even when the blinds were closed and no one could see me, still it feels uncomfortable wearing this light. Especially compare to how I normally dress

The sounds of running tap water has stopped for a while so Ayase should have done with the disks. What was taking that girl so long?

She is a diligent girl through. Naive but has been tried her hardest on everything.

Since the day she forced herself to accept her dear friend, Kirino's hobby. And later, mine and eventually our ritual. She has been a lot more open-minded on trying new things.

In fact, it felt like she had been on a crusade to educate herself about every other strange hobby in the world. Just so she won't ever again prejudge another person based on their hobby.

Which is why I am sitting half-naked here in the first place.

Next to me is the very expensive silk rope that she determined to buy despite I insisted any tighten rope will do.

She was very serious through, spending all her spare time reading these articles on internet, and even look for related books in library. She was also the one who suggested me to do it on her first so she can be the recipient of any newbie mistakes

Sigh. Why do I always surround myself by these over-enthusiastic idiots....

A knock on the door cut my thought half way.

After heard my reply, Ayase walked into the room with a huge scissor on her hand. The one which I used to cut cloths to make our cosplay costumes with.

Normally seeing Ayase holding any sharp objects would have terrified half of the people in our circle, Kyousuke in particular. But this time she had a huge blush on her cheek and was diverting her eyes away from my swimsuit. Kukuku, i guess even this bold girl is still an innocent child at heart.

It gives me my self-assurances back.

"Let's us start. I can't keep sitting here all day"

"Hey Kuroneko...."

Ayase tried to call me 'senpai' during our highschool day. But it just made both of us feel extremely awkward. So now she just call me using my alias when there's no bystander around.

"...if i tighten it too hard, tell me right away, ok".

So that's what the scissor for.

"Kukuku. My defense power is much higher than yours. I won't show such a pathetic side like you did...."

Whenever we carry out our ritual. Especially when it comes to her turn to submit her soul to me. I tried to insist her calling me with my proper tittle: Queen of Darkness Kuroneko-sama. But have to resort to just Kuroneko-sama for short and she still very reluctantly do it. Yesterday, right after when I first realised the rope made a mark on her , we both were freaked out. As I was frantically untying the rope and as Ayase couldn't see what going on on her neck, she was half in tear while repeatedly called me 'Kuroneko-sama'.

I have to admit that it was very adorable.

Moments like those made me realised the reason why guys were all over her during high school.

"......."

"......."

Ayase replied my boasting with a long silence.

I messed up

That reminded her of what happened this afternoon.

Her face stiffen and her eyes started to lose any humanity in it.

"Kuroneko-san, could you raise both of your arms?"

Her words are like commands

As I reluctantly follow her words, she started to wrap the rope around my lower chest and tighten.

Ouch! Ouch! It hurt. Her real nature resurfaced. And now I will be in the received end of all those rage.

I take it back, this girl is the true Demon Queen of the dark realm.

[SPARTAN 119]

Originally Posted by risingstar3110

Wrote the next part. But I probably have to reread and fix a fair bit later. Mostly because if i remember correctly there's only half of a prologue with Kuroneko as narrator in the LN. So it could be hard to mimic her line of thought

Also added it into the OP post

Spoiler for Continue of chapter 2:

So after dinner, while Ayase washed the dishes, I came back to my room, got change and patiently wait for her to finish.

According to what Ayase read, it's better to wear light clothing so the clothes won't press too much onto our skin. And since we only started with basic pattern: simply tying a pentagon shape onto my chest, wearing a normal one-piece swimsuit will do.

I didn't want to make the same mistake with Ayase yesterday when the collar of her loose T-shirt slip off and the tighten rope ended up making a mark on her neck.

Saying that though, it feels embarrassing to kneel on my futon only wearing a swimsuit.

Even when the blinds were closed and no one could see me, still it feels uncomfortable wearing this little, especially compare to how I normally dress

The sounds of running tap water has stopped for a while so Ayase should have done with the dishes. What was taking that girl so long?

She is a diligent girl, though, Naive but has been tried her hardest on everything.

Since the day she forced herself to accept her dear friend, Kirino's hobby. And later, mine and eventually our ritual. She has been a lot more open-minded on trying new things.

In fact, it felt like she had been on a crusade to educate herself about every other strange hobby in the world. Just so she won't ever again prejudge another person based on their hobby.

Which is why I am sitting half-naked here in the first place.

Next to me is the very expensive silk rope that she determined to buy despite I insisted any tighten rope will do.

She was very serious through, spending all her spare time reading these articles on internet, and even look for related books in library. She was also the one who suggested me to do it on her first so she can be the recipient of any newbie mistakes

Sigh. Why do I always surround myself by these over-enthusiastic idiots....

A knock on the door cut my thought half way.

After heard my reply, Ayase walked into the room with a huge scissor on her hand. The one which I used to cut cloths to make our cosplay costumes with.

Normally seeing Ayase holding any sharp objects would have terrified half of the people in our circle, Kyousuke in particular. But this time she had a huge blush on her cheek and was diverting her eyes away from my swimsuit. Kukuku, i guess even this bold girl is still an innocent child at heart.

It gives me my self-assurances back.

"Let's us start. I can't keep sitting here all day"

"Hey Kuroneko...."

Ayase tried to call me 'senpai' during our highschool day. But it just made both of us feel extremely awkward. So now she just call me using my alias when there's no bystander around.

"...if i tighten it too hard, tell me right away, ok".

So that's what the scissors are for.

"Kukuku. My defense power is much higher than yours. I won't show such a pathetic side like you did...."

Whenever we carry out our ritual. Especially when it comes to her turn to submit her soul to me. I tried to insist her calling me with my proper title: Queen of Darkness Kuroneko-sama. But have to resort to just Kuroneko-sama for short and she still very reluctantly do it. Yesterday, right after when I first realized the rope made a mark on her , we both were freaked out. As I was frantically untying the rope and as Ayase couldn't see what going on on her neck, she was half in tear while repeatedly called me 'Kuroneko-sama'.

I have to admit that it was very adorable.

Moments like those made me realized the reason why guys were all over her during high school.

"......."

"......."

Ayase replied my boasting with a long silence.

I messed up

That reminded her of what happened this afternoon.

Her face stiffen and her eyes started to lose any humanity in it.

"Kuroneko-san, could you raise both of your arms?"

Her words are like commands

As I reluctantly follow her words, she started to wrap the rope around my lower chest and tighten.

Ouch! Ouch! It hurt. Her real nature resurfaced. And now I will be in the received end of all those rage.

I take it back, this girl is the true Demon Queen of the dark realm.

This thread is becoming the "119 and Risingstar Show!"

Not sure how much help I'll be with the canon- been a while since I saw OreImo, but this far, I think Kuroneko seems in character, at least as far as the whole chuuni aspect of her personality, but I'm not no expert on this series.

I did, however, spot some typos, corrections boldfaced in the quote above.

As always, excited to see the continued BDSM adventures of Kuroneko and Ayase explore. I'm guessing they will progress from their usual ritual to try some new things, some of which might require a greater level of intimacy between them, although for that, I'm not sure how much AnimeSuki would allow to be posted before it becomes against the rules.

[risingstar3110]

Originally Posted by SPARTAN 119

This thread is becoming the "119 and Risingstar Show!"

Not sure how much help I'll be with the canon- been a while since I saw OreImo, but this far, I think Kuroneko seems in character, at least as far as the whole chuuni aspect of her personality, but I'm not no expert on this series.

I did, however, spot some typos, corrections boldfaced in the quote above.

As always, excited to see the continued BDSM adventures of Kuroneko and Ayase explore. I'm guessing they will progress from their usual ritual to try some new things, some of which might require a greater level of intimacy between them, although for that, I'm not sure how much AnimeSuki would allow to be posted before it becomes against the rules.

Thank a lot
(I will modify only the first post. Too troublesome to make change every 2-3 posts. Can't believe i made mistakes like "disks" through, was sorta sleepy, but still it's really unexpected )

I probably will keep it at PG or MA15 level through. Otherwise I will need to read some erotic novel to write those parts xD

[risingstar3110]

Have a couple of hours, so let's just continue put the idea down the paper. Who know when i will run out of my enthusiasm on this...

Edit: have to go off a bit, will hopefully finish then proof-read this chapter in few hours

Edit2: and now that should be the end of 1st arc/ volume

Spoiler for Chapter 3:

Now let's see. Have the rope end going under the left arm, then to her back. Then tighten it into the knot that was made earlier in the back. Got it.

"Ah...!!" Kuroneko groaned softly.

Ok, that's definitely too tight. The book said leaving a finger width from the rope to her back. But let's just make it's two.

"....."

Must be better. As Kuroneko was slowly breathing out, almost like a sigh of relief.

(Ha...ha...). I also breathed pretty heavily and had to wipe a sweat rolling down my face. This tired me more than I thought....

Now let's see.

I didn't do that bad of an effort, did I? ♪

The rope pattern from Kuroneko's back looked just like in the picture.

But before moving to check from the front....

"Eh... Ayase...?"

I slowly grab Kuroneko left wrist from behind, then slowly turn it around, guide it to her back. Where i handcuffed it with the handcuff I hid from my pocket....

Kuroneko apparently understood what I was trying to do, so she stop her resistance as I processed to do the same to her right arm.

It's not like this's the first time that I cuffed her like this anyway.

Now, let's check the front.... The rope made a nice pentagon shape on her upper chest. I did well, didn't I? ♪

The ropes tighten over and below where her breasts are made it looked so indecent through. As I was diverting my eyes away trying not to stare on them so much.

(Ah...ha....ha...) "Can't believe i fell to such a simple trap, Dark Angel Ayase." (Ah...ha....ha...)

Kuroneko's breath showed a slight of discomfort mixed in with some excitement. But she still managed to crack a smile while spout out her usual chuuni talk. So she should be OK.

So here kneeling in front of me was a girl who's one year my senior; also a friend and a roommate; with arms being handcuffed behind her back; and chest being tighten with a rope in pentagon pattern; while looking up at me and pretending that I was her captor. There were so many things wrong with that situation. But the only thought I could think of is how well I have done to get into it.

"So.... how does it feel.... Kuroneko?"

"Not much different to your usual ritual... Hey. don't look so excited. You will need to try harder if you want to take my soull...cough...cough...."

Kuroneko suddenly cough frantically

"Wait, let me get you some water"

"Thank, Ayase"

I grabbed the half-full water bottle on the top of her desk. We both were sweating a bunch so it seemed like her throat was just a bit dehydrated.

And as I moved toward her, uncapped the bottle and trying to place it on her mouth (both her hands were still handcuffed). THAT happened...

Until this day, I still don't know what was going through my mind at that moment.

Felt like something that took over my body, I walked toward right in front of her and stood tall. With her still kneeling near my feets.

I opened the palm of my left hand, face it up, while slightly bend and tighten my fingers into a small basin shape. Then just like that I moved my finger tips toward between her lips.

Kuroneko probably was puzzled with my action so she started to tilt her head straight up and glanced at me. As she do that I moved the bottle in my other hand, and tilted its neck toward my left wrist.

We didn't exchange a single word, but amazingly Kuroneko could read my intention. And even more amazingly, she just started to reluctantly further lift her head up, close her eyes and open her soft lips without a single protest.

That's all the permission i need, as I started to slowly and steadily pour the water down to my wrist and let it run along my palm, guided by my fingers and dribble into between those lips

It probably was no more than 2-3 minutes, but time seemed slowed down to eternity.

My body was filled with excitement. Just like i have just won over something

Ah.... where did your arrogance go Kuroneko? Now you know that I am better than you!!

What was I going to win again?

Anyway, it's not important. I was so busy focusing on this being who is kneeling in front of me as she gulped down the water spilling off my hand, that I could not care less about anything else.

I didn't even mind to stuck there at that moment for eternity. In fact I hope I would

Kuroneko soon got her fill, so she slightly close down her lips indicating me to stop. But i didn't let my hand go. As she slowly tried to move her head back down, the water from my finger tips keeps dripping down to her nose, then onto her forehead

"Stop, Ayase..."

Just a bit more, Kuroneko. There's just a bit more of water left in the bottle. You can endure that much, won't you, Kuroneko?

The water started running down from her forehead, rolling down off her cheeks, noses and drippings toward her swimsuits and futons. But I was too into the act that I couldn't care about them.

"...stop....,"

....

"...Ayase..."

.....

"...-sama"






That's the last word that i could hear. My final clear image is Kuroneko face was slightly in a mess with her eyes looking straight at me, her mouth gasping open trying to make the sound, while water was rolling off her eyes, cheeks, lips, nose....

I think i dropped the bottle.

I think my leg gave way and my whole body collapsed onto my knee.

I think my head was leaned and buried over Kuroneko's shoulder.

My vision was blanked and my ears buzzed.

The only thing under my control was my arm, hugging and squeezing tightly around Kuroneko.

My chest pressed close to hers, feeling the hardness of the ropes but also a soft and warm sensation through my clothes.

But above all, my energy was sucked out of me, and I feel a tingling sensation running up from my stomach to my brain, stun it with a zap, then spread all over my body.

I think Kuroneko was saying something next to my ear but I could not focus. Ah.... such a sweet smell of shampoo

I could do nothing else but tighten my arm around Kuroneko more and more, as my whole body continuously and uncontrollably shivered. And we would have stayed on that pose. as time moved slowly and every second feels like an eternity





I can't remember clearly what happened after that, but before i realised it, I already had untied Kuroneko ropes and uncuffed her. I think she did request me to do it, but my memories were fuzzy.

As Kuroneko was still drying up the damps of her futon with a hair dryer. I picked my body up, and carry it toward the door.

"Kuroneko, please don't tell anyone what happened today to others."

"I know..."

End of Volume 1

[SPARTAN 119]

Originally Posted by risingstar3110

Have a couple of hours, so let's just continue put the idea down the paper. Who know when i will run out of my enthusiasm on this...

Edit: have to go off a bit, will hopefully finish then proof-read this chapter in few hours

Edit2: and now that should be the end of 1st arc/ volume

Another excellent installment. So I guess Ayase and Kuroneko have gone all the way into the yuri relationship. Like to see how this progresses. Like I said, earlier, I'm excited to what happens in the next arc.

[risingstar3110]

Originally Posted by SPARTAN 119

Another excellent installment. So I guess Ayase and Kuroneko have gone all the way into the yuri relationship. Like to see how this progresses. Like I said, earlier, I'm excited to what happens in the next arc.

I...eh...does it feel too yuri~ish?

Like.... my thought on that incident was more on Ayase was over-swarmed by that almost uncontrollable sentiment of unknowing excitement and pleasure. Meanwhile Kuroneko is... well just there to accept it. She's sorta well-bounded anyway

I asked that because I don't want people to expect sex next chapter.... you know. Trying to keep it at tasteful subtext atm (don't want to spoil you my intention). But yeah provide me with any feedback if needed. I will tone it down by moving a few lines to future events if must.

And any grammar or mistake or other suggestions

Anyway chapter 4 (also updated first post), a shorter one. I thought it was a prologue for next arc at first, but it ended up going too long. (I didn't plan it at all, but every chapter from 1-3 did ended up around 1100-1200 words mark). The next part in chapter 5 might be difficult to write through.... As it gonna start its own arc.

Spoiler for Chapter 4:

I finely chopped down the green onion. And as the pot came to boil. Yes. Now the miso soup was set.

The clock was ticking toward the 6:30 mark. There’s still plenty of time, so I took out the salmon pieces we bought yesterday. Washed and pat dry two of them. Then slightly salted on both sides.

As soon as the grilling pan heated up. It should be set to go.

I always grilled the fishes last. As the grilling smell could awake Ayase from her sleep. And I also wanted to keep it warm when she has it.

She is not a late waker by any means. It was just that I had been taking care of my two little sisters since young. Waked up earlier than others, making their lunch boxes, tends for their breakfast and send them to school. This had become almost a habit…

Not to mention I was greatly appreciated at Ayase for letting me to stay here. So this was just a small token of thanks

It was through her family connection so the rent was relatively cheap. Very close to university and relatively close to my part-time job. Then the place was almost fully furnished. In fact some of the household items and furniture were apparently bought new just before I moved in.

What’s a silly girl. She thought that I didn’t notice it, did she?

Ah… I felt like I were just here to leech off Ayase. Ahahaha….

But it couldn’t be helped.

Of course I regretted to leave my sisters behind sometime . But I had absolute confidence in Hinata, who had grown up to become such a responsible and grown-up onee-san. She actually was the one actively persuade me to move out.
(And frankly, I was also sort of afraid that with me around, my hobby and antic will ruin her development. But I have a feeling that damn Kirino already did it.)

That’s why, I was certain that Tamaki will be properly tended to even when I’m not there

This child however….

As I was thinking about it, Ayase stepped out of her room, already properly dressed. She wore a short skirt with black sock up to her knee. Then up above is a light purple sleeveless top underneath her favorite cardigan, and finally, since it’s still cold outside, a fur collar coat.

Most girls I had seen on the street would looks like an alluring bitch dressing like this. Those in the magazines too.

But honestly only Ayase and Kirino could pull it off. And I would put my Queen of Darkness title on the line to stand for that belief

"Mor...morning..."

“Ah, did I wake you up. Give me 10 minutes; the breakfast will be ready then …”

“Ah, sorry, Kuroneko, I…eh… my friend … eh….we has to attend an early lecture today.”

She has an awkward smile, glanced down, then sideway as she said it. Her fingers tips were still fidgeting in front of her chest.
“I see…. Take your lunch box with you at least….”

“Thank… Kuroneko….”

Her eyes again glanced down, as she received the lunch box from me.

“..and… I have some modelling jobs today, so don’t wait for me for dinner. “

“Okay”

“I’m leaving”

“Take care”

The door closed behind her.

Sigh. What’s a child. Such a terrible liar.

Ayase just now, looked like the 10 years-old Hinata whenever she made up excuses to not clean up the dishes.

Oh well.

Not my place to say. But she did get into it pretty deep yesterday. Probably was just feeling too awkward to face me.

It felt pretty unreal through.

However the sight of water trickling down and rolling from my forehead to my cheeks and down to my bodies were too vivid for it to be a dream

Not to mention Ayase’s immensely cruel look. I would be honest; it scared me up a bit.

But kukuku. It’s still… well within my anticipation.

It’s actually even harder to deal with Ayase. As unlike the sibling idiots, she doesn’t even share her inner thought to anyone. Not to even herself.

Include the fact that right now she’s in great confusions, and pains.

That’s why the nature of the ritual aside, I made it my mission to expose this girl’s lies.

Switched off the stove, and took off my apron. I then processed to walk back to my room, opened my locked drawer and took out a small notebook.

Ayase, you can’t run away from it. It had already become a part of the ending….

… written in this Destiny Record.

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Have less than an hour today, so let's see how far i can go into chapter 5.

I got the planning up to chapter 7, include possibly volume 1/ or 2nd arc epilogue. But at this moment is not ready to write chapter 6 yet. Like, i know what to write but I don't know if i can put what i thoughts into paper.

Spoiler for unfinished Chapter 5:

"Ayase....Ayase... did you even hear me calling you just now?"

"Ah.... Classmate #2. What was her name again?"

"That's so mean, Ayase. And you just think it out loud!!!"

Standing next to me is Mai Tanaka. A classmate from my Legal Concepts 110 class. She's short, childish, cheerful and friendly to everyone. Basically the reality version of Kanako's fake public image. She's in one of my new friend since starting university

"You have been in so much deep thought these past few days. What happened? Is it love. It is love, isn't it?"

"No... of... of course not. How could that be love."

"Eh...? Tell me about it later then♪♪♪" Mai look around, lower her voice then made a cat smile as she tuned it.

Who are you? A gossiping housewife?

Ha... I sigh. Why were my friends all like this?

"So do you want to go having dinner with us today too?"

"Ah, no I promised my housemate that I will be back for dinner tonight..."

"Housemate...eh...?"

It was three days since I last have proper conversation with Kuroneko. I have been skipping home breakfast these last three days. Then went out for dinner with the modelling agency the night before, and this girl and her group of friends yesterday. So that's why before I left home today Kuroneko did specifically tell me: 'Ayase, come home for dinner tonight, I will wait for you.'

"...it's Gokou... Gokou Ruri-senpai, is it? How's nice!!!"

"Ah, yes that's her."

" I'm so jealous of you, Ayase. Living with such a beautiful and kind senpai. A true Yamato Nadeshiko...."

Kuroneko? Nadeshiko? Right.... Mai only saw her in ordinary outfit before

"... she clean the house, cook your breakfast, and even make you lunchbox every day. Mine don't even clean her room.... I'm so jealous...."

Mai's dorm mate...? What's her name again?

" It's Sakurai... Akimi-san, isn't it? Wasn't she in 3rd year now?"

" I think her study was delayed one year due to an injury in middle-school. So she's actually 3 years old than us...."

So this Sakurai-san is the same age with Kirino's onii-san.

"...You can't believe how childish she is. I means who at that age still actually go out of the house wearing animal onesie...?"

Eh...? Is that a new trend? I remember Kirino once told me that she knows someone like that too.

"Anyway... sorry Mai. Can't come with you today..."

"That's okay. I will tell others that Ayase's was occupied by love sickness, that's why she can't come...♪♪♪"

"You..."

Mai ran away, before waved back with a robotic smile on her face.

I started to look out of the window again.

Sigh

Ah.... what am I so afraid of...? Was I always this weak?

I turned on my phones to check up on the time, it's a bit past 4 already. Should go home soon.

As I ran over my phone contact address. A contact name caught my eyes

‘Kirino’s onii-san’

Gulp

I pressed ‘dial’, and slowly put the phone onto my ear, immediately a familiar voice could be heard from the other end.

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And here is the rest of Chapter 5.

Ah. I think i have been writing these too fast without proper proof-reading. But in the same time, i sorta afraid that I will forget these thoughts, so have to put it down as fast as i could.

Will be definitely difficult for me to write chapter 6, as I still could not plan out the detail for first half yet. So it could be a bit slow for me to write it. Once again, let's see how it will pan out.

Chapter 7 however, should be a bit more straight forward

Spoiler for the rest of chapter 5:

“Ayase? Ayase? Is it really my angel Ayase?”

“Ah, onii-san. It has been awhile”

“Sorry, Ayase…”

“Eh….?”

“No matter how much you will beg for it, I already have my beloved sister Kirino. I can’t cheat on her by running away and eloping with you.”

“I will hang up now…”

“Wait, Ayase…wait…”

“Jeez…. I’m not the 15 years old girl who had crush on her best friend’s onii-san anymore, you know?”

“Awwww….”

He sounded disappointed. But it’s glad to know that he hasn’t changed one bit after all these years.

“So…. Ayase. Why did you call me today? Is it love problem? Is my angel Ayase already found a guy she loves?”

What wrong with all these people?

Boyfriends, eh? Since entering high school, I and Kirino has always been flocked with all these confessions and love letters from guys. Kirino of course was too occupied with thought of her onii-san to even give any of them a proper chance. For me, well…let’s see… I don’t think I have met anyone that could move my heart….

“How’s about Kuroneko…?

“Eh…?”

“I said, how’s about Kuroneko…?”

“I…..with Kuroneko…? .... no….. it’s …. what are you talking about? It’s… not…”

“Why are you acting so frantic? Did Kuroneko get a boyfriend…? Did she bring one home…? Tell me his address, Ayase!! I have to meet that guy!!”

Ah he meant whether she had a boyfriend….

What’s an embarrassing thought that I just had

“No, of course not. Which idiot will actually like that denpa girl. “


“True….”

Oi, onii-san, did you just admit that you were an idiot?

Suddenly onii-san stiffed his voice.

“So, Ayase. Seriously. Why did you call me today?”

“I….”

“…”

“Onii-san?”

“Yes?”

“Is…is Kirino happy right now?”

There’s a moment of silence from the other end. Then…
“Of course. I promised that I will put my life on the line to make her happy…”

“….”

“And it’s not like anything changed you know? She still practices track, and tends to her modelling job which you already knew, and went crazy over Meruru and imouto eroge…”

“….”

“But even if she doesn’t have any of those. Even if the world collapses on her, I will still forever be on her side to keep her happy. You can have my words on that!”

“You… are not doing any strange to Kirino, are you…?”

“Ah….no…. of course not….. I think”

You pervert siscon…

“Please take care of her. My dearest friend…”

“Certainly”

“I will never forgive you. No, I will kill you again and again. If you ever ever make her cry”

“Please do”

Ah… No wonder my past self fell in love with him.

“That’s all, onii-san… sorry for taking too much of your time….”

“Wait, Ayase…”

“Yes…?”

“Sorry for taking your best friend away from you…”

“Ah don’t be silly onii-san… I will hang up now”

“Take care”

I hang up my phone, and put it back into my pocket

Ah…. I am happy for Kirino. I am so happy for her.

She’s now being with her beloved onii-san. There’s no reason for me not to be joyful with that.

There’s no reason, right?

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Wrote the first half of chapter 6. Haven't proof-read yet through.

The second half is quite difficult to write. Honestly i felt like it could break the flow of the whole story if i don't do it correct.

But it's what i wanted to write about. And hopefully even if does not come out correctly, a couple of reread edit can fix it. But need you guys opinions too

Spoiler for Unfinished Chapter 6:

I exited the elevator to our floor. Sigh. Is there any excuse I could pull out to avoid seeing Kuroneko today?

I don’t know why but it’s just too hard to face her right now.

I had been avoiding looking straight into her eyes as much as I could. But if we have dinners together, it will become obvious.

It’s not like I wanted to avoid her

More like because every time I looked at Kuroneko’s face, that image of her face being in a slight mess, looking up directly at me, while was begging me to stop…. kept reappearing...

But worse is that complicated feeling inside of me… I don’t know how to describe it. But it’s almost like a desire. Of wanting to reach deeper and deeper into that while skin, mess the inside of her body up, taint her inner soul with the filth of my hands, before watching her corrupted body wither in front of me…

Ah.

Did all of Kuroneko chuuni talk finally got into my brain? What was I thinking just now…?

It finally were just steps away from our apartment door….

Let’s just go in. Ayase, you are not such a weak girl.

No, I can’t

I can’t. I can’t. I can’t

I should run away from here first. Then I can think of excuses later.

I will face her tomorrow. I only need a bit more time. That’s all

As I turned away, kept my head down and headed back toward the elevator, a voice could be heard from directly in front of me…..

“Where are you going? Ayase….?”

I slowly raise my head. And just several metres in front of me, standing Kuroneko….

She was not smiling. In her hand was a bag from nearby convenient store …

Ah… she caught me in the act…

…………………………………………………………………………….

[risingstar3110]

And this is the full Chapter 6. Which conclude this whole arc. And it actually got fairly long too. Still feel like it was rushing it quite a bit.

I also looked and fixed overall some minor things from chapter 1 -5

There would be the epilogue for This "Volume" to put a conclude to it. Then we should move back for more BDSM in Chapter 7 (but i probably will have to plan out chapter 8 and 9 first.

Spoiler for Chapter 6:

I exited the elevator to our floor. Sigh. Is there any excuse I could pull out to avoid seeing Kuroneko today?

I don’t know why but it’s just too hard to face her right now.

I had been avoiding looking straight into her eyes as much as I could. But if we have dinners together, it will become obvious.

It’s not like I was embarrassed about that night.

More like because every time I looked at Kuroneko’s face, that image of her bounded up, being in a slight mess, looking up directly at me, while was begging me to stop…. just kept reappearing...

But worse is this complicated feeling inside of me… I don’t know how to describe it. But it’s almost like a desire. Of wanting to reach deeper and deeper into that white skin, mess the inside of her body up, taint her inner soul with the filth of my hands, before watching her corrupted body slowly wither…

…ah….

Did all of Kuroneko chuuni mumbo jumbo finally got into my brain? What was I thinking just now…?

Anyway

It finally was just steps away from our apartment door….

Let’s just go in. Ayase, since when have you became so weak.

No, I can’t

I can’t. I can’t. I can’t

I should run away from here first. Then I can think of excuses later.

I will face her tomorrow. I only need a bit more time. That’s all

As I turned away, kept my head down and headed back toward the elevator, a voice could be heard from directly in front of me…..

“Where do you think you are going? Ayase….?”

I slowly raised my head. And just several metres in front of me, standing Kuroneko….

In her hand was a bag from nearby convenient store …

And she was not smiling.

Ah… she caught me …

…………………………………………………………………………….

“So Ayase….”

I was kneeling Seiza-style in the living room. Eyes glancing toward the floor

In front of me was Kuroneko, sitting on a bench sofa with both her arm and leg cross.

“Why have you been avoiding me…?”

“... I was….just…”

Kuroneko sigh.

“Regarding those rituals, I thought we already agreed to fully share our thoughts over any concerns? “

“…no, It’s… not…”

I am currently being scoded by Kuroneko ebcause she caught me sneaking away. Sigh, what I am even doing…

“I have been really worried about you these past few days ….. “

“….”

“Hey, Ayase… Talk to me…”

“It’s…it’s not Kuroneko-san ‘s business anyway…” I muttered

“Oh…?”

Ah, crap. I accidentally blurted it out….

“Really. So it’s not my business…?

Kuroneko ‘s vent was almost popping and twitting out of her forehead. But then suddenly her face was stiffened. Like some thoughts were forming inside of her head. And then THAT happens….

“This is exactly why your best friend left you. “

“Eh..? “

I slowly raised my head; my eyes widened open with shocks.

In front of me, Kuroneko cracked the cruellest provoking smile that I have ever seen.

“Want me to repeat it again? I said that’s why your best friend left you. “

“…Ki…Kirino…? What does she have to do with this…?”

“Everything… Exactly because you kept everything to yourself. That’s why Kirino left you…”

“….”

I could not blurt out a single word…

“Sigh. You really were rubbed on by those two selfless idiot siblings. You should have told her ‘Kirino, come with me to Meiji Univeristy, I don’t want to be away from you, I will be too lonely by myself’. That Kirino won’t ever be able to say no to her friend like that…”

“…”

“Am I wrong?”

No, you are wrong….

“Oh, did I hit the bull eyes…?”

No, it was not true. I never have such selfish thought.

I really did wish for Kirino to go after her onii-san. She was so full of sorrow without him around. So I have given her my full support …

It’s not true. Stop rewriting my thought…

I clenched my fists, rising my body up from my kneeling position… almost screamed out loud.

“No. You don’t know anything about me. You don’t know how I felt…”

“Of course I do.”

Eh…?

Unexpectedly, facing my full rage was Kuroneko’s sadden smile. And a deep sorrow in her eyes.

It was such a drastic change from her earlier provocation’s look, that it simply stunned me…

“Of course I do know. As I felt the same way…”

“….this is not like the time she leaves to US, you know. Back then we still barely know each other…”

“… how many years have it been since then? How many things have happened between us? You think I won’t feel painful when seeing one my dearest friend chose to take a different path for her life?”

“…”

That’s when I realised: Kuroneko was right.

She was just like me. In fact she was even closer to Kirino that I ever did.

Did Kuroneko also experience that same frustration, sadness, disappointment that I did?

“Kukukuku, I was not such a fragile girl like you through. My magical defense to that girl’s curse is much higher than yours…”

She cracked out a mocking smile again. You totally ruined the mood, Kuroneko…

But right away, her face once again stiffened. And this was probably only one of the few times that I ever saw her looking so serious.

“We were really worried about you back then. You know? Kirino… and I.”

“….”

Something started to build up over in my throat. Prevent even a single word from coming out of it

“Back then, you were also avoiding us like you did now. Didn’t even answer our calls. And stopped going to our meetings”

“…”

“Kirino would have occasionally called me and cried to me in the middle of the night about it….”

“…”

“… so that’s why….”

Kuroneko got off her seat, came over, knelt down in front of me, and put a hand onto my cheek.

“… I know that I can’t replace Kirino…. But I’m here for you. So please don’t keep things for yourself anymore….”

It’s not fair Kuroneko.

That was so like Kirino….

No. That actually was the most hear-warming touch and smile that I had ever seen….

What would you do if I fall for you. You damn denpa girl….

I answered, as tears starting to roll down my cheeks…..

“Yes… “



………………………………………………………………………………………………………..

As the clocked ticked to 11:00 mark. I started to switch off the light and head to my futon. Have to wake up early to make breakfast tomorrow too.

Ah… What’s a long day.

Scared the freshmen with my introduction at works. Then go home and make a girl younger than me cried like a child. What’s a pure lump of evil I have become.

Couldn’t be helped through, it was written in my Destiny Record.

After cried for a bit. Ayase calm down. We then have a relatively quiet dinner. And I told Ayase that I will take care of the dishes. So she can take a bath first and work on her study.

She strangely obediently followed whatever I told her.

At least it looked like a massive pressure was lifted off her.

As I started to drift into my sleep, there was a knock on my door.

“Ayase…?”

Ayase slightly open the door and leaned her head in…

“Eh, Kuroneko….” She muttered “…can I sleep with you tonight..?”

“Sure . Come in, let me help you to take out the futon….”

“There’s no need. I think we can both fit in yours…”

“…”

Ayase took my silence as a grant of permission, and started to move into my futon.

“Good night, Ayase”

“Good night…”

There was not a lot of space so I instinctively turned side way facing away from her.

There was a movement inside the futon, and suddenly I found Ayase burying her face onto to my back. Both of her hands held onto my pajama….

“Ruri-senpai…”

“I told you not to call me th…”

“Please let me call you senpai just for today…!”

“Ah…… Okay…”

Ayase tone was so sincere that it stood down my protesting

“Ruri-senpai….”

“…?”

“I’m sorry that I made you and Kirino worried”

“It’s okay…”

“And…”

“…”

“You know, I never thought of you as a replacement for Kirino….”

“…I see…”

“And…”

“….”

“I was really really lonely back when I just moved here….” “

She sounds like something stuck on her throat.

“That’s why… thank you. Thank you for being here for me…”

Ayase hand started to shiver a bit behind my back.

Ah…

I have a feeling both of us will have sweet dream tonight.

End of Chapter 6

[risingstar3110]

And so this is Volume 1 epilogue (also updated in first post). Which should be closure of this entire arc....

I also has to fix up chapter 5 and rewrite quite a bit of chapter 6 to converse the whole event better. Especially the transition of dialogues

Already got a good idea of what to write in chapter 7 (we will return to a fair bit of BDSM), and have some ideas of what Volume 2 will be about. But at this moment it's still generally vague. I can't write chapter 7 without at least have planned out chapter 8 and 9 at least

Spoiler for Volume 1 Epilogue :

“And so this girl was in tears while saying ‘Queen of Darkness Kuroneko-sama, I humbly surrender both my eternal soul and this body to you. And will be your faithful loyal servant until the day we could conquer both realms’ ”

“That’s not fair, Kuroneko, you said you will not tell her…... Also I didn’t say those lines …. Kirino, don’t believe her, I didn’t say any of that…..”

It was a warm day in May. Once again it’s just the three of us, I, Ayase and Kuroneko meeting up in the Akihabara maid café.

And once again, I was sitting here opposite to Ayase and Kuroneko, smiling while watching the two of them all over each other like two idiots.

“Hey, Kirino. It was not true. Let’s me explain….Kuroneko… stop misleading her”

I have to be thankful toward Kuroneko through. When she told me that she would do something about Ayase situation earlier this year, I surely didn’t expect her to move into Ayase’s apartment like that.

Thank to that, Ayase had gotten back to her old self again.

Not to mention, my Ayase actually is a very pure and innocent girl. As I could not be there to protect her, it’s great to know that she now would be in a safe hand.

But still…

Sigh. I’m so jealous watching these two from the sideline like this. How did my two best friends manage to steal each other from me…?

…End of Volume 1…

[SPARTAN 119]

Originally Posted by risingstar3110

I...eh...does it feel too yuri~ish?

Like.... my thought on that incident was more on Ayase was over-swarmed by that almost uncontrollable sentiment of unknowing excitement and pleasure. Meanwhile Kuroneko is... well just there to accept it. She's sorta well-bounded anyway

I asked that because I don't want people to expect sex next chapter.... you know. Trying to keep it at tasteful subtext atm (don't want to spoil you my intention). But yeah provide me with any feedback if needed. I will tone it down by moving a few lines to future events if must.

And any grammar or mistake or other suggestions

Anyway chapter 4 (also updated first post), a shorter one. I thought it was a prologue for next arc at first, but it ended up going too long. (I didn't plan it at all, but every chapter from 1-3 did ended up around 1100-1200 words mark). The next part in chapter 5 might be difficult to write through.... As it gonna start its own arc.

Spoiler for Chapter 4:

Sorry for the slow reply, been very busy finishing off a thesis for a master's degree- being a graduate student is like a full time job. In any case, as for the yuri subtext, I was my mistake- I thought the scene break involved "off-screen" sex, but looking at it again, it was supposed to be Ayase just passing out in pleasure. Good job with as much as I have read- up to chapter 6, and will read the rest and any future updates when I have time.

[risingstar3110]

Originally Posted by SPARTAN 119

Sorry for the slow reply, been very busy finishing off a thesis for a master's degree- being a graduate student is like a full time job. In any case, as for the yuri subtext, I was my mistake- I thought the scene break involved "off-screen" sex, but looking at it again, it was supposed to be Ayase just passing out in pleasure. Good job with as much as I have read- up to chapter 6, and will read the rest and any future updates when I have time.

Hey thank for the feedback.

Don't worry just take your time, I will have to slow down a lot in coming weeks as well


Honestly , first time writing fanfict and there were quite a lot experiences that i only start to understand first hand. Like for example often heard about mangaka and LN readers pandering to fans' wishes (on shipping in particular). Didn't think much of it. But when read what you said above, my first thought was also "hmm, should I follow his thought and include a sex scene there?"

Then there's this whole: should i keep the development steady but it may end up bore readers/audiences out. Or should I push and accelerate the development, but risk making it feeling like it's rushing/ disjointed

[SPARTAN 119]

Originally Posted by risingstar3110

Hey thank for the feedback.

Don't worry just take your time, I will have to slow down a lot in coming weeks as well


Honestly , first time writing fanfict and there were quite a lot experiences that i only start to understand first hand. Like for example often heard about mangaka and LN readers pandering to fans' wishes (on shipping in particular). Didn't think much of it. But when read what you said above, my first thought was also "hmm, should I follow his thought and include a sex scene there?"

Then there's this whole: should i keep the development steady but it may end up bore readers/audiences out. Or should I push and accelerate the development, but risk making it feeling like it's rushing/ disjointed

Overall, I don't mind you continuing at a slow pace, my comment wasn't so much as a recommendation as stating that, initially, I mistook Ayase's passing out a scene break implied to be off-screen sex.

As for my thoughts on Kuroneko and Ayase actually having sex- at least in the world of your fanfic, it would make sense if they did it eventually, I mean, there are definite signs they of them seeing each other as more than friends. This line really does give me the impression of pent-up sexual desire:

But worse is this complicated feeling inside of me… I don’t know how to describe it. But it’s almost like a desire. Of wanting to reach deeper and deeper into that white skin, mess the inside of her body up, taint her inner soul with the filth of my hands, before watching her corrupted body slowly wither…

However, at the moment, I'd say the sex scene might be a bit abrupt- you showed in the first little "ritual" you described that Kuroneko was still embarrassed to even wear a swimsuit in front of Ayase. While people can of course do these sort of things spontaneously in the right moment, I feel they should get more comfortable, try some new kinks maybe. Obviously they should reach the point to where they are actually comfortable being undressed in each others company before they actually have sex- and if you do decide to go that far, it's your perogative whether to include an actual sex scene or just imply it happened "off-screen".

In other word's, I'm quite pleased with the story at the pace it's going.

[risingstar3110]

Originally Posted by SPARTAN 119

Overall, I don't mind you continuing at a slow pace, my comment wasn't so much as a recommendation as stating that, initially, I mistook Ayase's passing out a scene break implied to be off-screen sex.

As for my thoughts on Kuroneko and Ayase actually having sex- at least in the world of your fanfic, it would make sense if they did it eventually, I mean, there are definite signs they of them seeing each other as more than friends. This line really does give me the impression of pent-up sexual desire:



However, at the moment, I'd say the sex scene might be a bit abrupt- you showed in the first little "ritual" you described that Kuroneko was still embarrassed to even wear a swimsuit in front of Ayase. While people can of course do these sort of things spontaneously in the right moment, I feel they should get more comfortable, try some new kinks maybe. Obviously they should reach the point to where they are actually comfortable being undressed in each others company before they actually have sex- and if you do decide to go that far, it's your perogative whether to include an actual sex scene or just imply it happened "off-screen".

In other word's, I'm quite pleased with the story at the pace it's going.

Ah thank for the feedback like always

Honestly, I have a feeling I will not even make this far if not thank to you. I probably would have written 2-3 chapters, seeing no reply. And will just leave it.

I already sorta planned up for chapter 7-9 now. But still just slightly concerned that it will be too plot-focused . I means normally it's a good thing. But i have a feeling that sometime good author have to include fillers on-purpose just to shift readers mind away (and let it rest). Otherwise they will be overwhelmed by all of the development


Btw, If you haven't watched Oreimo S2 or read LN, I think just to explain more on my take in Ayase character (so you can point if out if she's too OCC later). I think she is depicted as a person bold on the surface, but fairly innocent at heart. So when i comes to sexual or relationship topic, I try to build her as "knew everything but experienced nothing" kinda girl. Kuroneko meanwhile is just.... Kuroneko
(actually regarding later part of the novel/S2, Kuroneko is actually quite manipulative when it comes to the well-being of her friend. Basically her Destiny Record is her planning of what she wanted to happen to her and her friends. Most of the time it only can be achieved via at her own sacrifice)


The 3 years time skip (as they all into college now) was for the story set-up, and also my take on the grown-up of novel characters. Moreover I also think due to the topic was a bit more mature now the character also needed a bit more mature mindset. I honestly didn't realise how young they were until I read the novel. Like if you show the anime to someone new and said they were all 16+, most people will believe. But considering the way they talked, it's very clear that they were just preteen in the novel. In fact Kirino and Kuroneko actually were quite mature for their age (believe or not)